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Posted By: aaronmeng
Hi everyone! As this is my first entry, I decided to include to give a short introduction about myself.
I'm from Singapore, a small country in South East Asia. I am 19 this year and just started medical school in 2006 at the National University of Singapore.
I think that I am a creative person and I (really) enjoy drawing, inventing and designing. I always thought that I will have a career in design (advertising, architecture, product designing) since I love art and coming up with new ideas. While I do pretty well academically, I am certainly not the brightest spark around. But by God's amazing grace, He has provided me with a place in medical school which I accepted after praying about it.
Medical school has been a great struggle for me thusfar as i find myself wanting to pursue all sorts of things but a medical degree. I find myself having difficulty focusing on my school work and end up struggling to get through my tutorials and exams. My friends always tell me how lucky I am to get into the prestigious medical school but they really don't know how much I have to sacrifice for me even to get by each day.
Sometimes I ask God why would He provide me a place in medical school when He knows I will accept it and struggle in it. Sometimes I wonder what my future will be like if I took up a degree in architecture. Sometimes I wonder why God gave me so many other talents when I will not be able to use them to the fullest since I have to put a large portion of my time on my academics (which is alot of memory work and static reading). Never have I felt so incapable and incompetent, as I see my peers enjoying school and not struggling as much as me.
A few days before my first semester exams, a church mate passed away unexpectedly. I was really confused with everything and started to become frustrated with how God has poorly timed everything. It is during my lowest moments that God has revealed a verse to me.
"Three times I prayed to the Lord about this and asked Him to take it away. But His answer was, "My grace is all you need, for my power is greatest when you are weak." I am most happy, then, to be proud of my weakness, in order to feel the protection of Christ's power over me... For when I am weak, then I am strong!" -2 Chorinthians 12:8-10
God works in the most special ways. Maybe I will never fully understand why God gave me a passion in something but set me in a totally different path (future) that I have to struggle to like. But there is one thing I have come to realise- and that is that God has a purpose and plan for all our lives. And this is because he loves you and me and wants us to spend our lives honouring and worshipping Him. If not for where I am now, I may never know how weak I am and how much I need God.
Never in my entire life have I experienced how real our true and living God is. Everyday I wake up no longer fearing the challenges the day brings forth- for i know God is in control and how much I lack in strength to overcome my struggles, God makes up abundently with his blessed assurance and undyling love for each one of us.
I hope that my entry can assure anyone out there that God has a reason for everything that has happened in our lives- no matter how tough it seems- and that we will never imagine how much he has in stored for each one if us. Just when we thought that God might have made the silliest of choices to put us through our circumstances, remember:
"God has not promised skies always blue,
flower-strewn pathways all our lives through;
God has not promised sun without rain,
joy without sorrow, peace without pain.
But God has promised strength for the day,
rest for the labour, light for the way,
grace for the trials, help from above,
unfailing sympathy, undying love." -kristone
God keeps his promises.
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Posted: 01/06/07 9:36am - Total Views: 631 - Category: College & Education
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Posted by:
hectorc
(Posted: 01/06/07 11:55am)
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aaronmend,
welcome to ChristianBlog.com. What a great first blog! Look forward to reading more from you.
HectorC
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Posted by:
shining
(Posted: 02/03/07 10:40am)
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aaronmeng, it's so nice to hear that you are connected with God, you have some wonderful talents that you could do so much with, yet you have listened and heard the word of God, God has chosen your path, I pray for you that you get through medical school without to much of a struggle, although God has chosen your direction stand proud and don't be afraid, let God lead the way and nothing will stop you, you are doing a wounder full thing. May God send his angels onto you, I wish you all the luck in the world. God bless you.
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