"If you cut me will I not bleed?" (Merchant of Venice.) There is a word that applies to me and people like me. It's called, oblivious, a blind spot in our perception that fails to see, most of the time, how our actions or words or forgetfulness can affect others. Women know that husbands and boyfriends are especially prone to this character flaw. It is a form of insensitivity that I know can really tick a man's wife off. I don't know if there's a cure but the symtoms can sometimes be treated with a kick in the shins or some other sensitive place. I have learned that wether you know what you've done or not it's better to just confess that your a beast and a brute and not fit for company of any kind. It sometimes has a salutory effect on the Missus but not always. It is difficult to escape your own flaws.
There are times when I'm just coasting along, whistling a happy tune (Metaphorically speaking.) I've gone to the floor with the Lord and confessed all my sins, even if I'm not absolutely sure it's a sin, I pray for His mercy and forgiveness in the name of Jesus our Lord. (This is the serious part, confessing sin, and not to be taken as flippant or mocking in anyway.) Having confessed I'm feeling unburdened because I know He has forgiven me. Then a voice in the back of my head somewhere says, "Think your out of hot water, Bub. You know how dense you are, you don't know what kind of vile, heinous, oblivious act of insensitivity you might have committed and not even known it." Then the anxiety starts pouring in like black smoke from a grease fire. There goes the happy tune. The oblivious man is not a happy man. Unless, as Robinson Crusoe, he's marooned on a desert island and it's just him and his faithful Chihuahua. No man Friday please, the NAACP would not like it, I'm sensitive enough to understand that, anyway. Sure you would get lonely and you might miss those apple pies but if you did something oblivious and insensitve your dog doesn't care, the monkeys don't care, the crabs don't care and I'm certain the coconut trees don't care either.
A little fantasy can help us get through the day, football helps to. Just a little time when you forget what an insensitive brute, beast you really are. If it were our sin nature the Lord has provided a way to deal with that, the gospel of Jesus Christ and His blood shed for any that will be saved. The Lord will forgive virtually any sin even being insensitive and oblivious and dense. There are, however, rulers and powers in this world, know what I mean? Who can forgive, well, sometimes.
I look forward to heaven more everyday. (That also is serious.)