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RRight now maybe I'm venting but anyway I'm bothere by the fact that no matter what I'm always alone even in a relationship I still feel alone. I'd choose someone being therefor me and helping me through things over someone buying me things everyday. I really think it's hard if you're around people that can help others but they can't figure you out. I don't understand. I mean maybe I'm jealous and that's really bad if I am but my sisters have always had someone to turn to which is my mom. My friend is always ready to help others but gets impatient with me and I just have to learn to lean more on God and be there for myself more. It's really rough and tiring and quite difficult when I'm just doing everything on my own.

Right now I'm thinking of just being homeless for a while or saving up first because I don't want o be around my family and I don't want to be around people who ruly don't understand how to nurture and motivate me. I want to be able to help others but it's hard when no one is really tryng to help me and maybe I'm feeling sorry for myself but eh well.

Maybe I can move to tennessee and start fresh alone I've been thinking of that a lot but I know it's going to be rough and kinda difficult to handle. I don't know what to do I feel like I'm 23 and I've wasted my life away. I have no one to talk to who isn't going to just tell me to forget about it or others are worse I know others are worse but thinking of them doesn't help me in anyway at all.

I just want peace. I want to be a social worker but people don't think it pays I could careless I want to help people not focus on making money.
I want marriage but I doubt I'll ever get that because the guy I wanna marry is easy to help others but desn't know how to nurture me. Maybe I'm a sissy but I just think I'm a woman who has certain needs. I want a man who prays with me EVERY NIGHT OR DAY without me having to ask or remind. A man who doesn't talk about others and then talk to the same people about other people a man who is affectionate and well I just described Jesus lol so I guess he's the only one suitable for me.

Right now I just kinda wanna die.

posted: 06/23/2009 07:11pm by becomingme
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Author: becomingme
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Dear Becomingme,

I understand your plight. As I read your blog, a comment kept coming back to my mind, and its one that my wife keeps telling me. I will say to her, "You complete me." And she would reply, "You don't complete me." At first I was shocked and mortified!! I thought, "What!" Then she explained, "For a Christian, no other person will ever be able to complete you. Your completion comes only from your relationship to God, through Jesus Christ." She was right. My relationship to Jesus completes me because He IS the COMPLETION for all men. Now I say "You COMPLIMENT me."

It sounds like you are looking for someone to make everything work for you. I suggest that you make it work for yourself, and if God desires, He will bring someone along to compliment you. I'm praying for you as I write this!! Blessings! (empowered to prosper)

DallasDownUnder

  Posted 07/07/2009 08:32pm
Author: dallasdownunder

Hi! Deanna here just commenting on your blog. I feel the same way as you sometimes, my whole family Knows that I have been wanting for a husband nearly all my life, specially my dad.

When I see my sister married, and all my nephews and nieces getting married I always feel sad.

For 10 years or longer than that my husband finally came. I married and was only married for one month, than my husband committed suicide. It was like yahooooo I finally have a husband than it was like he was just ripped torn apart from me.

I was devastated I thought what? did I do wrong what happened? I had all kinds of questions than I realized I never asked Gods will on who? my husband was I just picked him myself.

When It was 10years later and I got over the grief! I did a "Social worker" course at 'Te wananga o Aotearoa university' in New Zealand. I am on my last year trainning of Bachelors Degree. but as I did the school it made me realise how? the man that I dated did not fit my calling, because we were taught on values, takupu principles, which is valueing yourself and others the do's and do nots which all this stuff from this social work was all about the principles from the bible. It was awesome. I do believe we can get paid for this job because it is a job and you need money to buy you food, rent and so on for your needs.

My dad told me he prayed for a wife and my mum came into his life we just started cracking up laughing. I could not imagine my dad praying for a woman to come into his life, because of him being a staunch dad.

You are never alone God will always be with you, just talk to him and tell him what you want in a man and how you feel trust him. when he comes along you will know he is the one because he will swoosh you off your feet. keep thanking him for your husband.

  Posted 07/07/2009 10:02pm
Author: deanna

Wow. I see myself here. Not sure I have much of an answer but I'll try. I am speaking to me as much as to you.

1. God desires a personal relationship with us. That is incredibly intense.
2. Trying to make someone else be in that intense place is ... well it's like idol worship; putting someone else in the place of God.
3. We are fulfilled when we serve others, not when they serve us. Your expectation of another person serving you will cause hurt and frustration.
4. Our "job" is for making money. Service is something we do in or out of our work. We don't have to choose a career to serve.
Also, being a "social worker" is usually a government job and most people find they are so intangled by the humanistic government rules and regulations that it becomes more troubling and frustrating than actually helping people. Choose a career that you can do better than other people.
5. You seem like you might need some good nutrition and a healthier diet. Along with thinking on good things.
6. Being homeless will not help you grow. Being responsible for yourself will.

Yep, I just learned some things there. Thanks for helping me think about it.

  Posted 09/07/2009 07:21pm
Author: oneofhiskids

I just want to encourage you to involve yourself first with an intimate relationship with Jesus. He is the only one that knows all about you and will love you no matter what. Once you have peace in Him, all of the desires of your heart He will give you. I have felt the same way, a child out of wedlock with a man who wanted nothing to do with her, I have been homeless with my child, felt all alone even around my family. Betrayed... oh the list goes on...but in the midst of all of those trying times, God was there... His love anchored me... His spirit guided me... .I prayed for 2 years for my husband(after countless failed relationships), and He sent him to me. I knew after one week of dating him that we would be married. The first time I took my daughter out to dinner with him, she said, "Mommy, he is going to be my dad isn't he?" God is waiting for you to desire Him and make Him your first love. Once you do that, watch how everything in your life will come in alignment with God's divine plan for you.
I will be in prayer for you and with you.
Be encouraged... God has NOT forgotten you!!!!!!!!

  Posted 11/01/2009 01:35pm
Author: sasha34

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