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Deanna here Kiwibird Hi did you get my last comment yesterday. I have had a few more dreams and visions have you been on that sight yet. Well I finally got the computer to myself everyones gone out my son, and the family that stay with me we all have turns. You sound like an awesome person welcoming all the new blocks thanks again I also saw your nice looking family has the Lord show you anything new yet.
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Posted 06/30/2009 02:36pm
Author: deanna
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Deanna here Kiwibird Hi did you get my last comment yesterday. I have had a few more dreams and visions have you been on that sight yet. Well I finally got the computer to myself everyones gone out my son, and the family that stay with me we all have turns. You sound like an awesome person welcoming all the new blocks thanks again I also saw your nice looking family has the Lord show you anything new yet.
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Posted 06/30/2009 05:27pm
Author: deanna
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THIS is the first time that I have ever written a blog. As stated in my testimonial and biography, I have been saved for 2 years now and this blog my reveal my immaturity in fact, but I am growing in God's grace. I am somewhat intimidated by the vast command that many of you seem to have on the Holy Word, but I know that the Lord has brought me here for inspiration, so I gave thanks for all of you in your obedience to study God's word to show yourselves approved. I know that I shall be strenghted through this discourse.
I am poor and I am trying to understand why. It seem as if I can't progress,despite my earnest efforts. I grew up in poverty, but I bought into the idea that if I got an education than I would improve my status. I have a bachelors degree and I am working on a my Masters but I can't seem to find a job to support me and my two daugthers. I am a single mom and although I was not able to break the curse (my mother and grandmother were both single mothers), I am desparately trying to keep my daughters from being spellbound by living for Christ. However, poverty seems to really have a stronghold on me.
I try not to get God's word twisted or feed into the whole prosperity gospel evangelists that try to mix God's word with New Age concepts of visualizations and what not. I am trying to find the balance. I know that the Lord has promised me the desires of my heart, which is to provide a good life and leave an inheritance for my chidren. The closer I get to the Lord, the worse my circumstances seem to get. My flesh must be crucified. The lord is getting me to the place where I am not concerned with worldly possessions.
Matthew 5:3 teaches that the poor in spirit are blessed, "for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. I am praying for the Lord to increase my understanding? I am poor in spirit in this moment, I have no one to look to but the Lord. However, I feel weakened by my improvished situation, how can I represent the Kingdom and be an ambassador for Christ. It seems as if so many of my prayers have gone unanswered or have returned void. I am learning to surrender, not my will Lord, but Your will be done. All things in due season. I have to go through my trials and learn to count it all joy. I feel so downtrodden now and my prayer life has been reduced to "Lord have mercy." The devil is a liar, I will assume my rightful position in the kingdom and do the work that the Lord has called me to, I declare it in the name of Jesus. The adversary is trying to contaminate my faith, but I know that I must walk by faith and not by sight, and lean not upon my own understanding.
Again this is my first blog and it is serving as s personal declaration of sorts, I praise God for this space to release my burdens. I must not allow my financial status to become my identity. I am a child of the Most High God and he shall supply all my needs according to His Riches in glory. Therefore, I can not be decieved and fall into the trap of trusting in this oppression. The Lord is my Shepard and I shall not want, which means that I have to understand that I have all that I need in this moment and I must Trust God's Grace to be my sufficiency.
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Posted 07/01/2009 09:58pm
Author: queendwta
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Deanna here Kiwibird Hi did you get my last comment yesterday. I have had a few more dreams and visions have you been on that sight yet. Well I finally got the computer to myself everyones gone out my son, and the family that stay with me we all have turns. You sound like an awesome person welcoming all the new blocks thanks again I also saw your nice looking family has the Lord show you anything new yet.
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Posted 07/02/2009 02:56am
Author: deanna
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Hi Queendwta! apologies accepted but maybe it was for a reason you posted it in this place it actually touched my heart your story rings a bell to me, I am a single mum (widowed) with one son 18yrs old I also have a bachelor degree year 2 in social work but I cannot find a job.
I asked God did he want me to have a job open the doors, he has shut every door so far. I just keep waiting and waiting but I believe his will is not to get a job as of yet just wait for him until he reveals what he wants you to do it may not be his will for us to get a job.
He has given me social work though by using my house for his glory, he told me this your house will be used for my glory he has brought in people to stay with me woman from a prison cell I met who needed to have a place to stay he told me to take them in so i did they found a place later but they were ministered to by the lord one of them gave their hearts to the Lord, than I just had a family recently move in a mum, and her 4 children. So God has given me a job to do but without money.
He will bless us with money at the right time when he knows we really need it and to trust in him I just have enough money for food and bills I would always get my clothes from my mum never had new clothes for years but hey I have met people worse than me living in caravans, streets and so on.
Good on ya! for turning back to God he loves you for this and is very proud of you. do not let actions of certain christians put you down, even with their faults oneday God told me we will always have trials down here and frustrations and faults but when we get with him there will be no more frustrations or problems we will be set free I read your testimony hope you do not mind I love reading testimonies I can just read and read everyone bless you Deanna.
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Posted 07/02/2009 03:00am
Author: deanna
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Hi! everybody more dreams that I was given. I was in this room where this person was dying and all his family members, were sitting around me. the family knew that he was dying than the person that was dying was asking me heaps of questions of how can I be saved.
However the family was getting mad at me for the person that dying was more interested in hearing me speak than them, so I felt this scarey asthmophere with the family being angry at me because I was getting the last say.
however the man that was dying accepted Jesus Christ in his heart that was more important to me than ever. Praise the Lord.
The Lord told me oneday I will be working for those on their death beds but I have to wait till his anointing comes upon me first. and when the Lord is ready for that.
Another dream I had was I saw this cristal water swimming pool. very shinny it was like diamonds glittering the Lord spoke to me out of your belly shall flow living water what you speak from your belly it will happen.
another dream was my favourite one I was lying on this long step of stairs posing like a movie star, than I was way up the to the 2nd top of the stairs I had one move stair to walk on and I would have been in the throne room of God I just felt him his presence so strongly waiting for me to step in.
another dream was I was standing in court facing towards the Judge! he was ready to say if I was guilty or not guilty he had a hammer in his hand it was coming down I was so nervous than when the hammer hit the table he said not guilty.
I always dream I am saving souls, and rebuking the devil out of my dream in Jesus Christ name.
amother dream I dreamed was I was holding a stick, I think I was on a Marae, these man were sitting on chairs about 30 of them not sure how many just saw them they were listening to what I was saying they were very interested.
another dream was my son and me think I was dead here, I dreamed I was standing outside of the door of heaven, and I just felt this amazing peace and love just come over me my head was light like a feature I had no more stress, (I could not go in the door though), maybe I would have been really dead if I went in. but just the love and peace I felt outside the door I really wanted to stay there.
another dream I had was I was walking on red capert a long skinny red carpet.
my last dream before my friend turns up is I dreamed I was sitting in this church and Jesus Christ was there he was at the pulpit! I was the only one sitting there in church waiting for John but he never turned up it was only me and Jesus Christ, but I kept looking for this guy I was heartbroken with but he would not turn up. Funny thing today is I am over him. still many more but I would have to pray for the Holy Spirit to reveal them. but that was heaps anyway aye. Signing off Deanna
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Posted 07/02/2009 05:47pm
Author: deanna
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