Blessed?
I wonder if it's just me that finds themselves in a position where they are absolutely certain that God is calling them to do something, yet they don't see the opportunity to do this for whatever reason.
I know that God is calling me to be a missionary. This has been confirmed on a number of occasions, and most recently I feel that God has constantly kept little things reminding me of the fact. Even last sunday's sermon was added confirmation for me...yet I feel like I am being held back by the fact that I have two years of college that I must complete...and then I wish to study a law degree at university!
I know that God works in very mysterious ways, and he certainly has in my life that's for sure, and I also believe that my own plans and intentions may not be at all what God has in mind for me...but, I guess part of me struggles with COMPLETELY surrendering to God as i'm such a control freak! I actually pray about this fact. I need to trust more "Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding" however sometimes I find this hard. Othertimes I have no problem trusting God...but when it comes to major decisions about my life, I REALLY find it difficult, and I must just keep praying about everything.
My first 6 weeks at college have been absolutely amazing (changing the subject completely!) I have met some amazing people, and it is great to have Christian friends, as i've never been able to have that before and it really is an incredible feeling. I prayed so much about finding other Christian friends...and God has really answered my prayer. He has also blessed me with the confidence not to be shy about my faith...and I'm not at all shy or embarassed by it anymore...in fact, i'd shout it from the roof tops if I could JESUS LOVES ME...AND HE LOVES YOU TOO!!! He really, really does...and for the first time in my life, over the last few months, I have learnt what love is!
God's love for me is greater than the love my dad has for me...and that takes some beating!
When I was baptised, I remember saying "I really want everybody to be able to experience this wonderful feeling of knowing that they'll be going to heaven, and that they are loved unconditionally" and also saying that if I could put the feeling in a bottle and sell it, i'd make a fortune! It is my mission to talk about God as much as possible from now on, because I don't care how stupid I may seem, I have a duty to spread the Words of my saviour.
I am blessed :-D Thank you Lord!
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Author: emmalea
Location: Staffordshire United Kingdom
Gender: Female
Age: 19
Blog Entries: 19 (archive)
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i became a christian on 6th december 2005, after a long struggle to find the lord. being the daughter of a minister, the sister-in-law of a pastor, the sister of a youth pastor and a "pretty good teen" by most standards, i guess, to some extent, i greatly assumed my...
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