Pressing Past This
For I know the plans that I have for you, declares The LORD , plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11
Abba,
I am struggling here with this. I do not know if I am to stay where you have planted me or if I should leave. The path that I started on has shifted, I have made many mistakes and it looks so bad. My word means nothing, my reputation is ruined and I am no longer able to serve you in Ministry. Disappointment after disappointment. People are so quick to believe the worst about me. I am wrong for loving him, sleeping with him and trusting him. Sin is messy, I know this. I am a good person with a good heart. It hurts me to stay there, I struggle to walk in there and worship you. I am determined to press past this. I feel strongly that this was not handled the right way. Abba, I really need you, I need to hear from you. Am I to remain here or should I leave. Do I stand up for myself or sit back and wait for you. I just need a word from you, something to tell me that I am headed in the right direction. It is hard for me to pray. I am angry with you. I am angry. I am hurt. I don't know what to do. I have come clean to you, admitted my sins to you. Every day I try to walk in the newness and each day I am accused of my past.
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Author: hadasah
Location: Garfield Heights Ohio USA
Gender: Female
Age: 36
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