13th day
I don't know how long it has been that I've felt I should do a 40 day fast, but if you had told me I would EVER make it past 7 days (the most I've ever done, and have done several times!) on a liquid fast, I would have laughed. Not anymore! I mean, day 13! Wow! It's all God, that's for sure! I still don't know if I will go for the full 40 days, but I know I'm gonna put my best effort into trying! But it's gonna be all God, that's for sure.
This morning, what with the time change yesterday and just coming back from Africa (6hr time difference, and too many connecting flights) a couple weeks before, I've been having a hard time with sleep. Either I wake before the sun is up. Or I toss and turn all night. Or I wake at 3 or 4 in the morning and can't fall back to sleep till the sun has risen! So when my sleep finally got a pattern and was working--for the most part--I was happy. Then Sunday messed that all up with the time change. And the fast, having a side-affect of sleeping problems combined with feeling tired a lot (but not necessarily tired enough to sleep), hasn't been helpful either...Anyway, this morning, I had to wake up and get the door so my Grandma could drop of some of my little cousin's things after dropping her off at her school. But I finally fell back to sleep. Slept till 10am--which used to be 9, thank you very much--then was awake. I knew I had a bunch of things to do today, yet I did not want to move. Everything just felt to tired and weighed down! Then I had a brief vision--as clear as the one I had when I first saw the Passion of the Christ--where Jesus was standing over me, smiling. Then, as He leaned down close, I heard Him say "You trust my strength to see you through this fast, right? Can you trust me to give you the strength to get everything done, too? To see you through the day?" And suddenly, all I wanted to do was laugh!
So, I'm up now. Started the laundry. Put the Misty Edwards CD in the player. Am sipping a cup of broth with Chili Powder (supposed to aid with circulation, so I'm not suffering from the cold as bad!) stirred in, and about to read my Bible with all it's wide margins--perfect for multiple notes, see--and write in my personal journal...and worship my Lord and Savior. My strength. My Righteousness. My All in All! And everything else He is...and hopefully, I'll try and get back to my earlier system of seeking Him for at least the noon hour everyday (schedules help keep me in line, then I still serve Him at other times too but at the very least I know I got a lunch date with the Best Man!). I've lost that scheduled date over the past few days. Not sure how it happened, but it got moved to a rush around midnight instead. So now we start again!
Later, maybe, I'll post again...I like the anonymous idea of this site...because of my size, if too many people knew I was fasting this long, I would never hear the end of it! But a couple choice, and supportive people know, and that's what counts...and now you know too, so you can keep me in your prayers! I did not necessarily set out to do a 40 day fast, but God and I have an agreement and when it's time to stop He'll let me know. Unless I reach 40 days before our agreed upon "sign," then I'll stop regardless. But praise God, I've made it this far!
God Bless y'all!
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Author: hodisemajani
Location: Olean New York USA
Gender: Female
Age: 25
Blog Entries: 1 (archive)
Blog Comments: 1
i'm 23 years old, and quite small for my age...but i am starting a fast that i hope and pray will last 40 days! i've felt god's call to that for at least a year, but for the first time i know i must at least try to do it....
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