A letter to my Minister...Written on Tuesday, February 12, 2008
This started out as a letter to my minister and ended up a blog. I didn't end up sending this to him but I'm sure he'll read it!!
Todd,
Thank you so much for taking the time to talk with me on Monday morning. I really appreciated it. When I was at the doctors office that day I started reading the book, that I had shown you and it started out with the same things that we had just got done talking about. You answered so many questions that I had. The last few weeks I have been reading a lot and listening to your sermons on Sundays, and I have wanted to come forward, especially since you were talking about forgiveness. It has helped me in so many ways. I had thought about coming forward sooner, but in my heart I wasn't ready. This Sunday's sermon hit me and it hit me hard. I am ready.
I called Kevin Andler last night. I haven't talked to him in about 2 years. He was my counselor at WCSC since 3rd grade. I made a big mistake about 2 years ago and he got really upset at me and I never called him back. After thinking about it, I regret not talking to him for that amount of time, because he was someone that knew everything I was going through and helped me through it all in the past. We talked for a while last night. I had to call and let him know how I was doing and that I was going to rededicate my life back to Christ. We talked about some scriptures and our families. It was just like old times. I have missed talking to him, because there's so much that has gone on and times where I really needed him in my life, and I felt ashamed about what I had done and didn't call him. Hopefully since I've made that call, we can start talking again. I know that if I ever need anything he'll be there for me to talk me through it.
I just wanted to thank you for talking with me and most of all believing in me. You don't know how happy I was when you said that you were proud of me for what I've been doing. I know that I could have been doing more, but I can honestly say that I've been trying to stay on the right track and get my life in order. Over the last couple days I've been thinking about my friends and the song "Jesus Freak" by DC Talk. My life is changing and I wonder how many "friends" that I have right now are going to stick by my side and accept the "new me" that they have been seeing a little of lately, but are about to see everything that I've got. I'm ready to show them who I have become and who I am planning on staying. That little big of change is going to be HUGE! I haven't been going out much so they haven't really seen it yet. But I'm not scared of showing them who I really am, because I know in my heart that I'm doing the right thing for myself and for my son. My son is my life and I don't want him to see me going out and partying then go to church on Sunday mornings and act like I have that awesome Christian life all week, when in reality I don't. I do want it to live that double life and I am going to do whatever I have to do, so I don't have to. I want to live an awesome Christian life with my son. If that means that I have to find a new group of friends, then that's what I'm going to have to do. I love where my life is headed and nothing is going to get in the way of that. I am going to make that promise to myself, my son, to you and to whoever else wants to listen.
Tood, Thanks again for everything that you have done for me! I appreciate everything that you have done for me and my son.
Take Care,
Becky
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