He Is Faithful
In September 2004 my mother-n-law came for a week's visit and had a stroke while here. I spent 8 months caring for her while she was paralyzed on the right side. 4 days b4 her stroke my first grandson was born to my son's girlfriend. She couldn't handle it and the day after mother-n-law's stroke she asked if I could take him home with me for a few days. For 5 months I had him every other week. When he was 4 months old my baby sister was diagnosed with cancer at 42 years old. I was the only one that could care for her. Our brother is in prison and my other sister is an addict. Thus began 19 months of caring for her. One month after diagnosis her 15 yr old mentally retarded son molested someone. I took care of that mess too with investigations, counseling and court etc. The victim was very close to me. You would think I had an enemy trying to take me out! For one month I tried doing it all...and had a mini breakdown. I had to start letting go of some things. I loved taking care of my newborn grandson he made me smile you know but I told my son I had to quit. Shortly after that my sister was going to have to spend 2 weeks 3 hours away having radiation. She had to stay in a hotel and i had to go care for her. I told my husband that he would have to take his mom to his sister's 5 hours away. I then began many months of chemo, radiation and surgeries with her. The worst one was a 13 hour surgery to remove a section of her spine that had a tumor. They replaced the section with a donated femur bone and 2 rods and screws. I have never seen anyone suffer that much pain. She told many people that she would have quit then if it hadn't been for me. I want to write her testimony one day soon...
My husband was so very there for me thru it all. He is self employed and he took care of our 5 year old daughter and our home most of the time. I can't imagine going thru it all without him.
I look at the last 2 years of my life and can't imagine it written here in one paragraph...I want to share here an email I sent out to friends and family.
... Next Monday will be 14 weeks ago that the Dr's told my sister with anyone else they would give a prognosis of 2 weeks or less. But that they couldn't say that with her because she has fooled them all so many times. 19 months ago she was given anywhere between 2 to 6 months depending on the dr. Alot of it we know has been her will to live and our Father allowing her wishes...She wanted to live for her family.
My sister has suffered more in the last 19 months than i have ever seen anyone suffer in my life. She has fought harder each single day and some days each single hour just to live thru that day or that hour to be here for her family. (we have no idea what we take for granted daily) She has taken every prognosis from each Dr. and showed them Whose report she believes. And Who is in control of her life. Even up to yesterday when the hospice nurse said she probably wouldnt live thru the night. And if she does she probably won't live thru the weekend. In her struggles to keep going she has fallen alot in the last few weeks and she is covered in bruises from her tissue and skin deteriorating from the toxins and the jaundice. The last fall took its toll on her emotionally and as she was crying she begged our Father to take her home, that she was so tired of all of this. She is weary of the battle. A battle she fought valiantly. She has taught us all so much and inspired us greatly. The changes in her spiritually this last 2 years have been truly awesome. She has grown alot in her relationship with her Father. You cannot imagine how she hated the times she felt too bad to get to church on Sundays. Last Sunday it took alot to get her up and ready and out to the car and in to the church but she was absolutely determined she was not going to miss another one and just knew she needed to be there and she needed the prayer she received. And i think how often some of us have missed due to a headache or just to tired to get up and go.
I love my sister so much and have learned much from her this past 2 years. I am honored that i was able to be with her as much as i have been and able to care for her. Yes there were frustrating days and character building months but they have been worth it to be a help for her. She has been living with me the last 3 or 4 weeks. I know as long as she is still breathing there is hope and i know that she is weary and going Home would be a healing and joyous experience for her too. She knows her Father is in control and that her life is in His hands. She is comfortable and not suffering at all right now and resting peacefully most of the time by God's grace we know... .end of email.
I tell you all of this tell you about the one thing I learned from it all. I'm still here!
I'm still here only because my Father is faithful! I know He walked and talked with me every step I took. Even in the hours I didn't hear or feel Him, even when I told Him I know Your Word says You will not allow more than I can handle but are You sure You haven't mixed me up with someone else? He was there! I wouldn't be here today if He had not been. He loves me and He keeps me in the palm of His hand at all times. He keeps all of His children there! I keep having this thought got thru my head today that says i cannot go thru tomorrow, but i know that is a lie from my enemy!
Philippians 4:13 Amplified version says: I have strength for all things in Christ Who empowers me [I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him Who infuses inner strength into me; I am self-sufficient in Christ's sufficiency].
Jeremiah 29:11 Message version says: This is GOD's Word on the subject: "As soon as Babylon's seventy years are up and not a day before, I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out-plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.
Another thing that keeps me going is i know even tho all i have been thru there is someone else out there worse off than me. I know it could be worse...I know i am saved by the Blood of the Lamb and that i will see my mom, dad, brother and sister again soon...It's kinda like the story of the little boy that cried daily because he had no shoes until the day he saw the man with no feet...
Hoping each of you have a blessed Thanksgiving. Give Him thanks!
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Author: prasnhym
Location: Beaumont Texas USA
Gender: Female
Age: 49
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