Grace Is Faithful When I am Faithless
Yesterday I vented. I had a really bad day yesterday, with a bad case of proving Murphy's Law. You know the one: Whatever can go wrong, will. And yesterday it did. I even asked, if God won't answer my itty bitty so-called selfless prayers for help, why and how can I trust him to answer the big ones, the more selfish ones.
Today my Heavenly Father graciously reached down with specific encouragements that I am so grateful for.
Yesterday, my bank called to tell me the check my client paid me with bounced. Today, got an email that this client had secured a small business loan. I was able to cash that same check with a promise of another large check coming tomorrow, and a specific repayment plan over the next few months.
Yesterday found me anxious about my mom's dog who I was dog sititng, because he wouldn't eat or take his medicine and had bit my husband. Today my mom arrived home and appreciated my efforts, even though they were unsuccessful.
Yesterday found me stressing financially. Today my husband called to say that a large bonus was on the way, one that was based on profits from the last job he worked on. We've never had one this big before. In fact, most previous bonuses have been under $1000 -- and we were glad to see that!
Today I had a phone message from a prospective new client, who comes highly recommended for her prompt payment habits.
Yesterday I was grieving my two closest friends moving way far away. Today I reconnected with three old friends and laughed and hugged and caught up as we were taking meals and groceries to a fourth old friend recovering from a double mastectomy. We found out that her cancer had not spread to her lymph nodes.
Yesterday, I was stressed and anxious over the bazillion things I had to accomplish by the end of today, and now I am home with a brand new novel to sit and read and do nothing with.
Today, dear V told me to ponder these words: GOD IS.
Today, I reminded myself over and over and over that GOD IS on the throne, because I had apparently forgotten that fact yesterday. GOD IS in control. GOD IS watching to make sure everything goes according to His carefully choreographed plan.
Father God, I know that faith is hope that is not yet seen, and I confess that my faith is often very small at a point in my life where it seems that it ought to be bigger. I thank You for your faithful love, for the way you delight in bringing me tangible encouragements to pick me up and remind me that you are in control. Thank You for Your grace, that arrives to me like manna dropping from heaven. Bit by bit by bit, until I have all I need.
Thank You, Father God, that you are faithful -- even when I am faithless.
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Author: savedbyegrace
Location: Cumming Georgia USA
Gender: Female
Age: 53
Blog Entries: 262 (archive)
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i was saved by the grace of god 35 years ago and fell away, so far away that i wondered for a time if i had really been saved. in his grace, he brought me back to himself 18 years ago. i'm married for 28 years, 2 kids. my youngest...
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wow. this is kinda hard. i was saved when i was 15 years old at an old-fashioned tent revival. i was a "jesus freak" of the '70s. but then i fell away, waaay far away. i fell so far away that when the lord brought me back many years later,...
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