Have you ever had one of those nagging dreams that just won't let go!!
One that you try to figure out all the fuzzy gray areas!
I keep having one of those dreams.
It starts with a restlessness before I head into sleep, like some subconscious part of me knows whats waiting and don't want to fall asleep.
And it always starts with a tightness in my heart, like a dread deeper than words.
I'm always in a crowded place, like a concert, or ball game, when some kind of disaster happens, and my son has gone to get drinks as all this starts to unfold, so there is a desperate need to get through the crowd to find my son, to be with him,
but even more unnerving still, is this feeling of being pursued, of having to find everyone I love and get them to protection before disaster strikes, and of having to sneak through the dark to find them!
All through this dream panic has a full grip on me, and I'm moving with no direction in mind!
Too afraid to look behind me, knowing what is there, darkness waiting to embrace me, in the cold. depths of its arms.
But it coils around behind me waiting for the chance to get in, I feel it waiting, its touch like death on my skin.
Its heavy breath moves to my ears, taunting me to make the wrong move,
All through this dream I'm moving slowly along what seems to me to be a cold damp wall, in total darkness, but the dark presence behind me is a darkness of no description!
I'm gripped by fear, not wanting to call out, afraid of hearing fear in my voice,
afraid of letting the darkness know of my fear!!!
And all along I just keep repeating,"you will not defeat me!" I will not fail!!"
The Lord IS my Shepard!!
And as my voice rises in tempo so does the growl of the darkness behind me,
And I always wake up feeling so lost and afraid!!
Desperate in some way!!
I know the Lord is telling me to become strong for the fight, and that it may be a fight for not only my life, but all those that I love.
But what frightens me is the feeling in this dream of panic and fear!!
I love the Lord, my life unquestionably,is HIS!!
I trust him, and seek his guidance in all that I do!!
So where does such fear come from??
I've always had the image of strength in the Lord, held in my mind,
Is he telling me I am becoming over confident??
And it will be a threat to my future!!
Is he warning me the time will come when this will be what happens?? I will have to gather my family together in him, for protection??
This dream keeps me going in circles!!
As its never exactly the same each time, but the same feeling emits itself afterwards!!!
I just pray the Lord will make clear to me any message I am to receive from this dream!!