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Guilt, Pain, Agony, Anger, Fury, Shame, Sick

I haven't wrote in here in a while, but I am in a great deal of self struggle about seeing people literally going down the drain...

I have learned and seen many things that it is impossible in other county or state or city...but as a christian you always to hate to see other christians going down the drain...digging their grave as you can say...and yet... I feel anger, fury, and sickness that I cannot help that person...

there is a saying that there isnt a limit on how many people we are suppose to help out...but it comes with great difficulty and sacrifice...a friend who is easily led by people who says what ever she wants to hear...now that friend is biting me on plain moral issue that is between God and this world...it might sound very easy to decide...but in reality...it is very hard...

pains me...i feel guilty that i was the one that led her there...but i always doubted her ability to judge it for herself...saying God is with her while she is partying and sinning...and saying God is mercyful...yes...but like Paul said...what is the limit that we can use His mercyness...says she is christian while never taking Sunday seriously..that furys me...and i have addressed this to her...she needs to becareful...i feel sick that i feel i cant save her, and how corrupt she has become and yet not aware of it...

messing up our lives are very easy but dealing with the consequences is very hard...we dont just fall or slip a step...we fall in cliffs folks...and no matter what kind of equipment i have, if i try to help, i will surly fall that cliff...

im in mix of guilt of drawing my friend away from God, pain that i know my friend will go through huge pains, agony because i have no energy or strength to save her, fury because she uses God's name everywhere and whenever she wants to, shame because she claims to be the true christain and a good person- there are no good people on earth, there are ones who try to be good people, sick because it hurts me bad...

only way is God and Jesus, of course there are prayers...but i cant do it...the passage of wide and narrow road... it might be there after we die...but it is a symbolic example that we choose wider road of easy and happy road...being christian does not mean happy, good, goodtimes, oh jesus, help me...we christians must choose the narrow road...the suffering pain and great sacrifice...im not saying to pray for her but to know that...God does not choose direction for you...that comes from us...and it will take many many years even after death that we have chosen the wrong road...our feelings shouldnt control our lives...

i pray and hope and ask that please...being happy is not about being christian...but live the right road...yes we will make mistakes but why do you think like that? does that mean you wouldnt care of how you act until consequences comes? we are christians 24/7...Jesus died because we cant be perfect even though we try our hardest...we have to try hardest to become a christian 24/7...become is the right word...i feel that i am not worthy enough to say i am a christian...so being a christian is not a light thing...it is change in direction, we are the salt, the bold taste of the world...Jesus denied followers when one said he will bury his parents, and the other said he will say good bye...he denied them not because he was popular, but because he made a point...God is first then our parents, our past lives shouldnt be looked as a past but nonexistance, because it will affect our relationship with Jesus Christ...

God bless you all

posted: 07/03/2007 12:01am by unusualteenchristian View: Backlinks, Permalink Total Views: 644 ShortURL: http://christianblog.com/f30e Category: Christian Life	Print This Blog Entry
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When we put God first, above all else, before all others, we will then have the complete JOY, the complete VICTORY, the complete ABUNDANCE of the Christian life.

Paul told us that he learned to have all joy both in times of abundance and in times of want. He had this JOY because he had the Holy Spirit in his heart, the truest evidence of God's love for His creation, apart from His Holy Son's sacrifice that day at Calvary.

My heart is hurting for you. Forgive yourself for being a stumbling block for another. Ask God for that forgiveness. Then ask the one that you helped stumble for that forgiveness. God loves you, young brother. He wants you to always know that He will always love you, as if you were His only child. He has THAT kind of love for EVERY one of us, if you can understand what I mean.

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Virginia

Posted 07/03/2007 05:58am
Author: happytoberestored

UTC,

My wife and I have discussed on numerous occasions how those closest to us, family and friends, can be looking right at our lives and not see the Truth in it. It is not because it isn't there, but instead it is blurred or obscured by there own sinful nature and spiritual lacking. My wife asked me one time, why can't my sister see that she needs the Lord? If she would, then she will find the peace ind joy she keeps searching for in worldly things. Like a light bulb it sudden came to me. Paul on the road was blinded and could not see, then suddenly, through the assistance of a man of God, the "scales" are removed and he is transformed. In Paul's case, both his physical and spiritual eyes were opened. In the case of those around us, their eyes are not yet opened and they just can't see what we are trying to share with them.

Step back and think about that for a moment. That which is so obvious to us as a pearl of great price is something they just don't see and therefore can not accept it as we give it or share it. Now that said, I am not saying that we should stop sharing and witnessing. Remember Paul had heard the teaching and it wasn't until that specific moment that he finally "saw" the Truth. We, our life or our words, may just be that moment for someone else.

I love the song "What if I'm 15", as it reminds me that without the laborers in the field breaking and turning the soil, the seed never has a chance. Grab a shovel, a hoe, a rake and a sword. There are fields to be prepared, seeds to be planted, water to be poured, for the time till harvest shortens my brother.

In Christ,
GreyBear

Posted 07/03/2007 10:40am
Author: greybear

I could've written this blog about one of my friends, she says she is tryign to change but when I hear her stories I feel as if the advice I am giving her is going in on ear and out the other. I know though she is a Christian, but what saddens me is that she doesn't always act like one. I feel the same hopelessness of reaching her .

We just have to trsut God, and what He is doing. God ahs everything in control and our lives are in His hands. He knows what has to happen to get us to change our focus onto Him.

I am praying for you and your friend

God Bless

-Golden

Posted 07/03/2007 01:11pm
Author: youaregolden

Forgive yourself. When your heart is right, your relationship with Him is straight. Pray for your friend. She has to mature in her walk. Unfortunately we can't gauge where a person is spiritually until we see them in action. So keep praying for her. If you're still on speaking terms, show her the importance of repentance. and if you can't pray that she learns. We all have to learn about grace, repentance and redemption in our own time and through our own experiences, and it IS hard watching someone else stumble and fall. Been there, and DONE THAT!

Posted 07/03/2007 03:00pm
Author: blackrose65

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