I had high hopes for today. I made the decision to commit myself to focusing on the right things and getting my life on track. Morning came and I showered and got dressed and went to work. Immediately things went south! Things that were supposed to be made ready by the night crew were not ready. I said a few things about it to a few people and made a lady at work angry with me. She accused me of cursing her! My "bubble" of Christlikeness was popped! The old man took over and as I worked I said some bad words and felt awful. About lunchtime, I called home. My wife was off work today. She got angry with me when I asked her to make sure that one of her son's friend's did not have my parking place when I got home! I went back to work. I decided to go over to a friend's house after work instead of coming home to her. She didn't like that too much. She has sulked all evening...and I don't care anymore! She is going to go out of town with a girlfriend of her's for the next three days and I don't care anymore! Her son is a shiftless High School dropout who doesn't have a job and apparently doesn't want to go out and find one...and I don't care anymore! I'll tell you some things I do care about though. I care about people telling their children to grow up and take responsibility for their lives! I care about people giving me a chance to explain what I am trying to tell them without jumping to conclusions and freaking out! I care about those who also show concern for me and who respect me and what I advise them to do! (My marriage is showing signs of failure. Sometimes I wish I'd never done it. I love my wife...but she doesn't care enough for me to do the right things about money or to tell her soon to be 20 year old shiftless son to get out and get a life and a job!) I used to be very concerned about my walk and my life and about helping others...but lately...God help me I just don't seem to care anymore!
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