Why is this hard?
I have been doing a Bible study by Beth Moore called Believing GOd. I stumbled through my lesson today as it revealed a lot of hard things for me. It wants me to ask God to grow my faith and I am scared of asking. I know that God will do wonderful things in me and make me more into a woman after His own heart, but I'm scared He will take away things that are important to me. I know it sounds soooo shallow though. I have been through situations where God has stripped everything from me and made me stronger. PLus, God is soo much better than all those things.
But Faith is just believing right? Believing a God liek the one shown in Isaiah:
Isaiah 45:18-25
For thus says the LORD,
Who created the heavens,
Who is God,
Who formed the earth and made it,
Who has established it,
Who did not create it in vain,
Who formed it to be inhabited:
" I am the LORD, and there is no other.
19 I have not spoken in secret,
In a dark place of the earth;
I did not say to the seed of Jacob,
Seek Me in vain ';
I, the LORD, speak righteousness,
I declare things that are right.
20 Assemble yourselves and come;
Draw near together,
You who have escaped from the nations.
They have no knowledge,
Who carry the wood of their carved image,
And pray to a god that cannot save.
21 Tell and bring forth your case;
Yes, let them take counsel together.
Who has declared this from ancient time?
Who has told it from that time?
Have not I, the LORD?
And there is no other God besides Me,
A just God and a Savior;
There is none besides Me.
22 Look to Me, and be saved,
All you ends of the earth!
For I am God, and there is no other.
23 I have sworn by Myself;
The word has gone out of My mouth in righteousness,
And shall not return,
That to Me every knee shall bow,
Every tongue shall take an oath.
24 He shall say,
Surely in the LORD I have righteousness and strength.
To Him men shall come,
And all shall be ashamed
Who are incensed against Him.
25 In the LORD all the descendants of Israel
Shall be justified, and shall glory."
I guess I am holding those things that I don't want torn away from me too closely. They are God's not mine. My wonderful boyfriend, is Gods. My two cats that keep me company, are Gods. My family, is Gods. My job, is Gods. I am Gods. For some reason I think that all those things are MINE!
How have I been living lately, a lot by sign as 2 Corinthians 5:7 says "We walk by faith, not by sight." I need to walk by FAITH. Hebrews 11:6 says :" But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him"
I have faith that His blood washed away my sin (1 John 1:5-10). I have faith that all things He does are for our good (Romans 8:28). I have faith that God is who He says He is . That God can do what He says He can do. That I am who God says I am ( a child of God, a forgiven sinner, a new creation). That I can do ALL things through Christ. That God's Word is alive and actove in me. [I thank Beth Moore for the last five, she has them all over the book I am studying ]
Wow, just typing that out makes me feel better.
One last thing. I BELIEVE IN GOD! It doesn't hurt to say that!!
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