I have published 100 blogs and shared 277 comments.
I published my first blog on Friday the 14th of November 2008.
My most recent blog was published on Sunday the 2nd of December 2018.
I currently live in: Australia.
My local date/time is: Thu 27, 06:56 am.
My oldest brother Luke attempted to take his life this morning and was found by my 8 year old niece who called the ambulance and police. He lives in Sydney with his Fiancé and their 4 children. Please keep the family in your prayers. They have taken him to hospital under a section and won't be released until they say so. Mum has raced up there ( 3 hrs away) and I've not heard anything more yet.
Something big is happening for me. Something exciting but incredibly scary which has got me in a place of pondering who I am and what makes me, me. These are the discussions barb and I will be having between now and June when I go under the knife for some surgery the drs say will save my life.
Angiogram done. Was booked in for tomorrow but they called late yesterday afternoon to see if we could bring it forward. Amazing how it's done! A small incision in my wrist but that's about it. Odd feeling. No blocked arteries for me though which is a good thing, will get the rest of the results next week. Amazing what they can do really.
This week is a roller coaster of emotions. Yesterday was day 1 of a 4 week inquest into my friend Kate's death. Kate was killed with her brother in a horrific accident at a theme park in October 2016. The media are showing a lot stories on it and everywhere I look, I see photos of Kate. It wrecked me then and still wrecks me now. Tomorrow I am also meeting a new cardiologist who is taking over my care and Friday I'm in to see Barb.
Breathe Shani.. in and out.
I did it. I made the infamous mistake. See, when you are on the up, you think your invincible. You cancel your appointments and support groups. You make lots of dumb choices be them social or financial. You also think you don't need the tablets anymore. So you stop taking them.
And then as quick as the high comes, it leaves. Without warning the switch flicks over and you have nothing to fall back on. Nothing.
It's the nature of the beast I guess.