Shani Matthews @shanijane

  I have been a member of ChristianBlog.Com for 9 years, 6 months and 13 days.

  I have published 98 blogs and 272 comments.

 My first blog was published on Friday 14th of November 2008.

 My most recent blog was published on Wednesday 16th of May 2018.

My Blog Archive
The one thing I need to hear
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I know I don t need approval from other people, however I have fallen...
Choosing to be brave
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What does it mean to be brave?   It means to take one more step.   Out...
Waiting room anxiety
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I sit down at the seat in the corner the farthest away from people and...
My old mate Panic.
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  My hands start shaking. I cannot breathe. I know these feelings. I...
3am ramblings.
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It starts like an itch, and then my face is wet. It is not raining. The...
Lessons from the looney bin
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When people hear, I ve been admitted to the looney bin, their automatic...
My big old secret
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Shani, I know you aren t going to want to hear this. But given your...
My Name is Shani
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My name is Shani and I m OK.   I might not be. In fact, there s a high...
The Monster and Me
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Before I could name you, I thought I was nothing more than you. The...
You know me
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You know me. I live in your town. I work in your community. I play...
Stop apologising for existing
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Sorry. Sorry. Pardon. Excuse me. Sorry. With the onset of depression...
Just another mental health blog
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“You still don’t think you deserve therapy.” Barb, my...
I see you
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Excuse me? Yes, you. Hi, there. Come sit with me for a minute. I want...
My Anxiety Nightmare
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Today, my anxiety nightmare came true: I had a panic attack in front of...
Bon Voyage 2016
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Well, it’s the New Year, and looking back on the year that's...
At my table.
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I am sitting at the table with Depression, Anxiety, and PTSD. I realise...
The whispers of PTSD
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Sept 10 is world suicide prevention day so thought I would do a quick...
the lies of depression.
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My particular method was going to be a concoction of prescription...
Why it's taken so long to write again
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It's been a long long time since I have written a blog. To be...
I think you are brave
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The first time I had a panic attack, I thought it was just asthma. I...
When it's ok to not be ok.
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Empty- adjective- containing nothing; having none of the usual or...
Ramblings for the scar bearers who feel left behind.
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She sat quiet and still with such deep pain etched on her face it hurt...
The hardest letter I will ever write
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This weeks homework from my psychologist was probably the hardest ive...
When all that is left is a smile
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My smile is my umbrella. This silent smile, which hints at knowing some...
Dark and lovely?!? I get this!
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Song of Solomon is one of those books in the bible that beckons me to...