Well I been thinking a lot about this over the past few days & have questioned myself have I learned anything especially as I feel so far away from him at this time. Who am I to write bout what I've learned but been thinking about it much this past half hour so hear it goes.
First thing I've learned is that I have a father who loves me. A heavenly father that loves me in spite of everything I have done. A father who will never ever hurt me or leave the way my earthly father done...It's say in Deut 31:6 that we are not to be afraid as our father goes with us & that he will never leave us nor forsake us. It's jus knowing that our heavenly father is always by out side even when we don't feel him.
Secondly Jeremiah 29:11 says For I know the plans that I have for you" declares the Lord "plans to prosper you and not to harm you". This is so true he knows exactly what we are goin to be or do before we know. I remember when I said I'd get involved in our local food bank that I would be the person that would work behind the scenes as there was no way I could speak to the clients that would come in but God had other plans as from day one I've been dealing with clients on a one to one basis & that was 2 1/2 yrs ago & now I'm doin a 12wks introduction course in counselling & hoping 2 continue my training to become a qualified counsellor. The other thing I remember saying was there's no way you will ever get me up on stage to speak & yet again God had other plans as I've found myself Speaking at different places about my journey into food bank & also speaking at different women's things giving my life story. I always say now never say never as God already knows ur future & I praise & thank God for the opportunities that he has gave me to share with other women.
Thirdly is learning to completely put my trust in him. In Joshua 1:9 it says, have I not commanded you? be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you will go. Now this is something I'm am struggling with right at this moment as I am afraid & discouraged. I'm afraid all the time. Afraid of rejection, afraid of abandonment, a fear of what is ahead of me. Afraid of how I can speak of my hurt & pain. Afraid of having no control over my life and my emotions. Even afraid of sharing my story with u guys. But deep deep down I know that I have a heavenly that I can trust & I know that he goes with me in every step of my journey. I also believe that someday soon that I can share my whole story will u guys & also with other people who may have been in similar situations that I've been in. So I'm jus goin have 2 try & put my whole trust in him especially over the nx few days, weeks & may b even months. I don't know how long it will take but i know this that God already knows. Jus have to remember that verse in Deut. He will never leave me nor forsake me!
Reading your blog caused me to think about the wife of my pastor. If she were here, she would tell you that she liked being an accountant. In addition to the number aspect, she liked going into her little cubicle every day and shutting out the world. It was a safe and secure place. Then God called her out of her "safe place" and like you, told her to get out on stage and minister to women. She told God she was afraid and He told her to "do it afraid".
It makes me think of you, Ann-Marie. Yes, you are afraid but despite that, you "step out of the boat" or "step into the flooded river". Amazing. This... this is what God can do!
See when I remind you of this blog at some stage don't you be telling me to get to bed ya hear!
This is fantastic. Who said you couldn't write? You amaze me every day.
Have a loving Father
A Future from Him
Take Courage and strength in Him.
All so lovely and true. Thank you Ann- Marie and each is true and He os all those things and more ... loves you infinitely in Christ.
Blessings and peace in Him,