As you may know, I just endured yet another medical emergency the past few days. Thankfully I am home now, but I am having to deal with new news that is both sobering as well as enlightening. Although it appears that I have not had any strokes (major ones anyway), the news that my heart is only beating at 38% is disturbing and quite honestly, a bit scary. Equally scary is the casual approach taken by the cardioglogists to the news. For whatever reason, there appears to be little urgency in the matter on their parts. I am left to wonder if this means they are just busy or do not believe there is much they can do for me.
In early 2000, while at Mayo Clinic, I was given a diagnosis of restrictive cardio myopathy and told I had six months to live without a heart transplant. Through gigantic lifestyle changes and much personal prayer and fasting, I beat the odds and not only made it past the six month deadline but have lived on for over 15 years. Through the years, I have been aware of the inherant woes within my heart, but most of the time rarely thought about them. Less than two years ago my ejection fraction (defining the ability of the left side of the heart to pump blood) was over 50%. Not great but not bad either. Obviously something has happened to cause that figure to drop all the way to 38% and it has to be the sepsis and septic shock I endured a year ago. During the darkest hours when I was in septic shock, my heart came within a few beats of just shutting down. Obviously during that time of trauma, damage was done to the muscle.
In 2000, I was only 47 years old and my body was able to bounce back. I am now 62 years old and after the ordeal I went through last year, I know it will harder for my body to stop this ugly slide and fight back above 40%. If God could heal my heart 15 years ago, there is no reason why He cannot at least add a few percentage points to the ability of my heart to adequately supply blood to my body.
I am still digesting the news I received yesterday, but I do know that in order for me to rise above this situtation and get better, it will take hard work on my part and prayers from those who care about me. I ask of you this simple prayer today; that God will let me know what I am to do and sufficiently heal my heart so I can continue living my life as I have the past year. Thank you so much for joining with me in mutual prayer in this matter. I value and cherish, and may I say; live by and through your prayers. Thank you so much for standing with me and not judging me as I stare down the giants that keep jumping out of the woods to confront me. Thank you!