Many of us fight a daily battle with pain. Unless a person has experienced real pain, there is no way to understand what a person in pain is going through. I along with some of my closest friends here at Christian Blog endure episodes of pain far more intense and crushing than can be imagined, and that is a lot of pain!
Three of the worst types of pain are surgical pain, neurological pain and arthritis/lupus etc pain. Although each of these represent a different type of pain, each one is horrible in its own way. I am intimately acquainted with each of these pains and know by experience how they test one's patience and very faith in God.
Relentless and excruciating pain wears even the strongest believer down and renders us at times incapable of doing anything besides hanging on. Interestingly, this concept of hanging in there is the Biblical definition of patience or endurance. Anyone who has even studied the Bible a little bit knows that patience is a BIG deal from God's point of view and a virtue God wants us to have an abundance of in this life.
My mother blessed me with genes that she inherited that produce chronic and at times unbearable pain. I watched my mom literally writher in pain during the many years I was her caregiver. At best, her various pain medications brought her temporary relief but as soon as they wore off the pain returned with a vengeance.
I remember feeling badly for my mom when she was enduring a pain attack, but I could not experientially understand what she was going through. I could pray for her, comfort her and give her full doses of her medication, but I could not know by experience what she was feeling. That all changed starting in 2003 when I began manifesting many of the same symptoms my mom did at about the same time in her life.
Over the past 10 years I have endured episodes of pain so intense that I want to just scream. I have experienced pain so deep and relentless that I felt it would never end. I have put up with countless wasted days, sleepless nights and trips to various doctors due to my yet undiagnosed condition. Pain is a part of my life and I have learned to live with it and work around it.
At times God answers my plea for relief and at times He does not. I do not question why but rather have learned how to enjoy the times when I the pain is bearable and endure the times when the pain crushes me. I believe God has taught me how to live with this condition and not allow it to totally render me a worthless liability to Him. Through prayer, medication and determination; I have learned how to live with this undesirable companion without it destroying my life.
I live for the promise Jesus made that at His return I will receive a new body fashioned unto His which is immune to sickness, pain and death. I live for the day when the promise found in Revelation of there being NO MORE PAIN comes into fruition. I live in the hope that no matter what happens to this earthly tabernacle in which I dwell (my body), nothing in this life can separate me from the love of God in Christ in me.
Thank God for His love, strength, comfort and hope which pull us through even the deepest and most difficult times of pain in our lives. Thank God that even when we must endure physical, mental or emotional pain; with God's help we can do it and become a stronger and more empathetic believer because of it. Like any handicap, pain does not have to ruin our lives if we learn how to control it and live with it by literally believing we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us.
As always, Blessings 2 You!
This is a topic which has been on my mind a lot lately over the past two months as I have been recently diagnosed with [wiki]Atypical Trigeminal Neuralgia[/wiki] which has the nickname "The Suicide Disease". It responds very poorly to both meds and surgery and usually is not diagnosed until people have undergone countless (and useless) dental procedures. Thankfully I have a doctor who knows that I am acquainted with nerve pain due to my chemo treatment and neuropathy and when I likened it to that only far worse... she listened. She also has a few patients with this condition as well.
Living with non-stop pain for two months has caused me to realize it is crucial to cling to God... even when it hurts. We simply must NOT let go and we must remember... we are an overcomer through Jesus Christ is is THE OVERCOMER!
I cannot begin to imagine what living with such pain as you describe and in this instance 'I take my hat off to you.' I also give thanks to God that he has been able to preserve your faith during these times as his love never leaves us.