Since I do know how long my arm/hand will cooperate, I thought I should try and compose a blog. The difficult part is that I could compose twenty blogs filled with thoughts and research I have done recently. But, alas, I have to work within the confines of my body and what it is going through on a given day. Yesterday was a horrible day and today appears to be better; let's hope so.
It appears that most of my physical problems stem from my congestive heart failure. When it goes into failure mode, I get short of breath, feel very tired, have increased swelling in my legs and abdomen, develop a dry hacking cough, decreased appetitive, am unable to lie flat and above all, show weight gain of 2-3 pounds overnight or 5 pounds in a week. Obviously the heart's ability to pump blood not only enables us to feel good, but enables our bodies to operate the way God intended.
I have been fighting heart failure for nearly 20 years. I was told 15 years ago that I would die in six months without a heart transplant. Different doctors have offered different reasons why I have this problem and possible solutions. Thankfully my cardiologist has refused to go off the deep end and order drugs that would turn me into a zombie. Although hindered by the problem, it has not made me an invalid. I share these things with you so that you are aware of the battles I face on a daily basis and that my battle is indeed daily in nature.
Some people fight diabetes, others fight depression. Some people fight lung disease and others fight a wide array of afflictions that hinder and obstruct us from feeling well enough to live with abandon and give all we have every day. Those who have managed to keep themselves pure from medications enjoy the greatest freedom of all (outside of the freedom we have in Christ). Certainly, what is common to most of us fighting the hardest for our bodies and minds is the need for large amounts of drugs every day. I, like most others I know, hate that we have this burden but we know that without the medications we would probably die.
I leave you with the wisdom found in Proverbs 4:23:
Proverbs 4:23New International Version (NIV)
23Above all else, guard your heart,
for everything you do flows from it.
Holy Bible, New International Version®, NIV® Copyright ©1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 by Biblica, Inc.® Used by permission. All rights reserved worldwide.
Above all else we are to guard our heart (both spiritual and physical), for everything we do flows from it. We guard our hearts by way of putting on the Word of God and we guard our physical hearts by staying healthy, refraining from foods that damage the heart and drugs that make it artificially work better.
There is no doubt that genetics play a huge role in heart function, both spiritually and physically. Thankfully we have a perfect heart in Christ in us. Unfortunately some of us have less than perfect physical hearts and have the hope of physical perfection to look forward to. Thank you for allowing me the opportunity to share what is going on in my heart.