The Widow M At Almost 2 Years Since.

So the Two Year Sadiversary is coming up.  I would have thought by now that I would have some idea of what I wanted to do with my life.  I sort of set it as a deadline for making decisions.  You know, what am I going to do with my house ~ what am I going to do with my life ~ what purpose could I have now ~what am I going to do with all my inventory that fills my basement that I have done nothing with since.  You know, "since".  That is a complete thought.  I rarely finish that sentence.  I just say "since".  It encompasses so much.  
Kirk died.
There was a purpose to my life
I felt completely at home in this life
I was whole
I was utterly loved
I was everything to someone
I had a purpose
I felt loved by God
I felt close to God

I had a future
My world ended