Luke 22:31-32 Simon, Simon, Satan has askedto sift all of you as wheat.But I have prayed for you,Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers.
God knows everything that is happening in our lives, and even Satan comes to test us with His permission. But sometimes when we fear that we have failed, it hurts a lot and we start asking God for why He allowed it to Happen in our lives?
Job 1:9-12 Does Job fear God for nothing? Satan replied. Have you not put a hedgearound him and his household and everything he has?You have blessed the work of his hands, so that his flocks and herds are spread throughout the land.But now stretch out your hand and strike everything he has,and he will surely curse you to your face. TheLordsaid to Satan, Very well, then, everything he hasis in your power, but on the man himself do not lay a finger.
This weekend,there was something painfulfrom mypast (which I left far behind) came in front of me, all the thoughts that was buried inside me in the past years started to wake uponce again.I was literally fighting with God, asking why did He allow something to happen in my life. I was trying hard to stop my thoughts, I was trying hard to get that whole thing out of my mind.Then after sometime, I felt, I know that God allowed it and because of it I learnt a lot, but still I cannot accept it. Then later sometime I felt what should I do to have my internal peace. I thought should I forgive God? I know that God is never wrong. I know I am not worthy to do that.
Job 2:10 He replied, You are talking like a foolish woman. Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble? In all this, Job did not sin in what he said.
Job 34:5 Job says, 'I am innocent, but God denies me justice.
Job 37:19 Tell us what we should say to him;we cannot draw up our casebecause of our darkness.
I checked in the Bible to see what issaid in it. Did someone think this way? I checked in Google to see what people think about Forgiving God. I did see a few books with the Title Forgiving God, one of it was by a mom who lost her kid. (Sometimes this is how God leads me out of my thoughts. I was able to relate my situation with what she was going through. Slowly my thoughts started moving in other directions.)
And thinking about the answer to the question was "Yes", It is not Forgiving God, it is forgiving the Situation or the Circumstance. It is Hard Though, only He can help us do it. I have to do that. Because sometimes when His people hurt mebecause of their ignorance,and yes I have toforgive, because of the Love He has for me. And ofcourse I love Him, and I cannot be without Him.
Job 40:1-4The Lord said to Job: Will the one who contends with the Almighty correct him?Let him who accuses God answer him! Then Job answered theLord: I am unworthy - how can I reply to you?I put my hand over my mouth.
Sometimes, though I am ineligible to forgive, it is better to make peace with Him and say God I accept whatever you have done, though it hurts me so badly, I just go ahead and forgive whatever has happened, pray please give me the strength to forgive what has happened, and heal me. Miraculously, after I decided to do that, things were turning positive. God revealed me the most positive side of what I thought of as Negative. With this clarity,I don't think I will fight anymore. He plans it for our betterment. We need walk out of the whole thing to have a better relationship with the Lord. He just uses these deliver us from the Hands of Satan. Break our ignorance and bring us to Light.
Job 42:12-17The Lord blessed the latter part of Job's life more than the former part. He had fourteen thousand sheep, six thousand camels, a thousand yoke of oxen and a thousand donkeys.And he also had seven sons and three daughters.The first daughter he named Jemimah, the second Keziah and the third Keren-Happuch.Nowhere in all the land were there found women as beautiful as Job's daughters, and their father granted them an inheritance along with their brothers.After this, Job lived a hundred and forty years; he saw his children and their children to the fourth generation.And so Job died, an old man and full of years.
You bring up what I believe to be a very important topic. I think there are a lot of Christians who secretly harbor hurt and even angry feelings against God. Filled with guilt, instead of admitting those feelings to God, they push them down and pretend they are not there. This has serious consequences when we do it with one another and it has serious consequences when we attempt to do this in our relationship with God. Yes, God is God but He also requires that we be honest with Him. Contrary to what some people may think, I do not think it is wrong to tell God you are hurt, upset, confused or even angry by things that are happenings to you. It is okay to tell God, "I don't like this!" or "I'm angry!" or "I don't understand why you are allowing this to happen to me!" I think we are being honest with God... and ourselves. You see, God already knew how we felt but when we voice our feelings, we are coming face to face with them and until we do, nothing can be done about them.
There have been times I have ranted and raved at God. I don't understand! I am hurt! I am confused! It always ends the same. I end up sobbing in His arms. The Father holds His hurt, angry and puzzled child close to Him until their tears subside. As He does, the child realizes that they are loved by the Father. He has NOT forsaken them or abandoned them nor is He angry at them. Suddenly the child realizes they do not need an answer. They are loved by the Father and they can trust Him no matter what...even when they do not understand.