Today while walking I saw a small banner for a Church which read "1 John 4:7Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God."
During my initial days of search for God and purpose of life, I was so desperate to some how reach out to God, because I was not happy with the life I was living. I used to read all kinds of religious, philosophical books trying to find an answer to why am I Living a life which I don't like? Is there any way to escape out of it? Is there any happiness in this life?And based on my readings one thing I understoodwas "God is Love". I tried so hard to love (not to Hate), I used to lead a very religious life, no meat, no egg, only vegetables, eat only once in a day. I made my life as simple as possible, so that I can get away from the complex worldly life. With the Hope that I will get to God somehow. It was like I just have to do it, I cannot take it any longer.
Mathew 7:7-8 Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened
Accidentally, I got into a small Christian fellowship when I was in St. Louis. They used to sing all worship songs, but I did not know who Jesus was, only thing I knew was God is Love, so to my understanding I replaced the word the Jesus with Love. It worked. When I was in that fellowship, (somehow) I used to know the needs of the people and I used to help them with some small things.But I did not see any big difference between the people in that group and the non-believer community from where I come. It was the prayer for job, finance, house,marriage, children, healing. The same sick and tiresome life from which I am running away. So I decided this is not for me, I will go my way.
Psalm 54:3-5 For strangers have risen against me And violent men have sought my life; They have not set God before them. Selah.Behold, God is my helper; The Lord is the sustainer of my soul.He will recompense the evil to my foes; Destroy them in Your faithfulness.
But then, I met one woman whom I would call a true believer, but a cancer patient. I saw her fighting for life in the name of Jesus. For the first time I heard about Satan against whom she is fighting in the name of Jesus.This was different, that is when I realized that Satan is trying to take my life away from me, and I need to fight for my life. That is when I realized and I got baptized. I stayed with her for about one and half years. I was spending my time reading and understanding the Bible. It opened my eyes, and threw light into various dark corners of my life, it really helped me understand what and how parts of the life. I started to understand people and their lives based on what Bible says. I slowly started realizing the works of the Holy Spirit in my life, and find the purpose in my life. I started redefining my life in alignment with the scriptures.
Psalm 23:1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
Luke 6:31 Do to others as you would have them do to you.
One thing I realized in the whole journey is God has improved my ability to love others. As compared to me being a person who knew none other than my own self, God has really helped me to be a person who can be really understanding, caring, compassionate and authoritative whenit comes to interacting with others.It really helped me to look at people the way Bible teaches us to look at them. To look at their sins, to warn them, to forgive them, to pray for them, to guide them and to lead them. I am just a good friend to them.God keeps me my Best,I try to help people be their Best.
Mark 12:30-31 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.' The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these.
Isn't it amazing, and wonderful, the way God leads us to the right people at the right time! What a testimony, Deepa!
What were you doing in St. Louis? We live close to St. Louis!