Seated on my Bed with CAST in my right leg, I am smiling as I sit here to write my Blog.
Last Saturday, around 5:20pm EST, I twisted my feet in the stairs when I was going out of home, and was a moment when my consiousness went dark and deep till the bone and a woke up back after hearing the crack. I did not realize that it was a fracture and I continued walking, it was paining, and started paining and swelling, my friend drove the car to the bowling place, the minute I got out of the car I was feeling dizzy and I requested my friend to get some ICE and was there for about 3 hrs. I called my friend, she suggested that I to the doctor, it was already 7:30pm on Saturday and I was searching for an Urgent care which is open. Finally I found something, my friend drove there, but that center did not have any ORTHO, they sent me to a different hospital. There they took the XRAY, and finally by around 1130pm. The Radiologist walked into my room saying "YOU BROKE YOUR FOOT" and He wrapped a bandage around my foot and told me that I have to go to an ORTHO on Monday. In a way I knew that it was coming, I was praying God to give me the strength to cross through. They brought me the crutches and told me not to put the foot down. I asked them how do I get on the stairs, they told me better to sit down and move using my back. WOW. I called up my sister in Tennesse, and told her and asked her to let me Mom (who is in India), I told them not to inform my Dad immediatly as he will get worried, disturbed and get anxious.
I came back home, I stay with a few friends.For the past 10yrs I live by myself, I take care of myself, I cook my food, I go get my groceries, I do my laundry. I usually look at friends for roaming around or when they are in need of anything. Otherwise I am a self sufficient kind of person. Now, things have changed, I cannot be self sufficent, now I need to work things out. I was not sure what to do next, sitting on my bed I was crying, tears were flowing down from my eyes thinking of my helplessness, my roommate came by me and she consoled me saying "YOU ARE MY SISTER", and she brought the food for my dinner. I ate and I was not sure if I will be able to fall asleep. But by God's grace I slept well.
My first Sunday in many years when I was not able to go to Church. I called up my manager at work and told him of my fracture. And I was trying to find any available doctors. Not much for the Sunday, I was just taking rest.
Monday, an action packed day, I called up my Client at work and informed them of my fracture and will have to WFH, they were okay. I called up my Insurance provider to get the list of doctors, in my area. Called up one my one and checked for the appointmnet. I got one for Tuesday, then there was one more that came up for Monday evening at 430pm. Receptionist told me that since this is an emergency, she is trying to accomodate my name. I called up my roommate and she told me that she will accompany me. I went there on my clutches, and the doctor was showing me my fracture, the 5th Metatarsal : Jones fracture : displaced (my RIGHT FEET the BONE in the Joins last toe and the ankle). This type of fracture takes time to heal. He told me 4 weeks on CAST with no weight, 4 weeks with boots with no weight, and 4 weeks with boots with weight. TOTAL of 3 MONTHS. Thats was pretty long time as compared to what I was expecting. ANYWAYS. OKAY.
Back home, now I need to plan my life for the next 2-3 months with no weigh bearing on my right foot. (Makes me laugh). OKAY. I emailed my HR of my injury, they told me to fill in the ADA form for temporary disability. Spoke to my manager and client to make sure they are okay with me work from home. Though I have a Smart phone I dont use it much, now I started using the online tools, I booked for my laundry online. Ordered for my house hold things using Amazon Prime. Checked with my friends got the contact of a cook and she has agreed come starting Monday.
Now coming to the main point, what are the LEARNINGS SITTING AT THE FEET OF JESUS
- WATCH AROUND YOU TO SEE HOW PEOPLE ARE COMING NEAR AND START SHOWING THEIR LOVE FOR YOU, WHICH WILL EXPLAIN THE INTENT WHY GOD ALLOWED THIS TO HAPPEN IN MY LIFE
- WATCH TO SEE HOW MANY NEW THING YOU HAVE LEARNED IN THE PAST ONE WEEK, WHICH YOU WOULD HAVE NEVER LEARNT OTHERWISE
- GOD NEVER TESTS ME BEYOND MY CAPACITY, WHAT IF HE FEELS MY CAPACITY IS MORE, AND HE KNOW I WILL OVERCOME IT.
- THE STRUGGLE AND PAIN ARE SOURCE OF FAITH WHEN YOU KNOW THAT THE END RESULT IS VICTORY
- WHEN THE YOUR SELF LOVE GOES DOWN, GOD'S LOVE GETS REVEALVED
- IT IS NICE TO BE COMPLETE, BUTITS OKAY TO BE INCOMPLETE, WHEN HIS LOVE IS THERE TO MAKE US COMPLETE.
- WHEN HE CARVED ME IN MY MOTHER'S WOMB I WAS NOT AWARE OR CONSCIOUS, NOW WHEN HE ISMOULDING ME AGAIN, I AM AWARE AND KNOW HE LOVES ME.
- TODAY IT IS HIM IN ME, TOMORROW IT IS I IN HIM. THOUGH LOGICALLY IT IS THE SAME, BUT PHYSICALLY IT IS DIFFERENT.
This is my biggest blogs so far. He just locked me down with the CAST to make sure that I stay near HIM and listen to HIM. JUST LOVING IT. It is like taking a deep dive into water and coming out fresh. Sometimes I need it, I am too tired of my ways. I know there are many people whom HE strengthens their FAITH by my experience.
Father, I thank you for all the things that Deepa has learned already in this short time of incapacity. I pray that this child of yours is continually open to hear what you have to say. There is nothing that is impossible in you, Lord, and I ask for healing that goes beyond any imagination and peace on the journey. Amen