I am concerned for you

Ecc. 4:12 - Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken. (NIV)

Thinking of the accountability/support group attending for over a year, then reading Bethy and Kirsten's words placed three items on heart.

The encounter with the young lady who asked about healing of mental disorders;. Why wouldn't a loving God and Father do this for His child? I asked the exact same question of the Lord saying, "Lord, I as a father if having the ability to heal my son or daughter from a serious illness would do it because I love them."

Expecting a reply I have never received a direct answer as to why has not done this for me. Yes, other Christians have their faith meters, willful sin, and generational curses passed down. What God let me know, I wanted to treat Him as genie. To grant my prayers (wishes) even not knowing if I would put others in captivity.

Hezekiah's beseeched the Lord to not die, receiving an additional fifteen years of life. Then sinned by revealing Israel's treasures to the Babylonian's.  His family and all people of the kingdom payed the price with seventy years of bondage. (II Kings 20)  

Bottom line, no matter the hurt and suffering endured God knows best the Kingdom will for us, others, for His glory. On earth never seeing seems excruciating and bitter many times. Yet, we must trust The Father brings glory through Christ in us … somehow!

Secondly, Kirsten writing on God valuing and purposing our lives hits close to home. Asking, what in the world is the purpose of my life now? Each day is Groundhog Day repeated over and over. To sleep, arise, and move each day in mental, physical, and relational pain the vast majority of a day; day after day after day.

Sorry, if sounding like whining but absolutely true. Suffer and remain removed from people every day. The Lord reminded me of an encounter in 1980. Our college fellowship would visit a nursing home Sunday afternoons.  A dear saint 91 years of age was confined to a wheelchair and wore glasses so thick, she could barely make out the picture on the TV from a foot away.

She asked me, "Why doesn't God just take me home?" She wanted to be released from the suffering and wasting away endured. The response the Lord provided, "For the man in the bed across the hall." He did not know Christ and when visiting him, he only spoke of the women been with serving in Europe during WWII.  

He was in darkness … she was a shining light! What does God have for me to do? I can barely take care of self, yet alone anyone else. Not sure but pray somehow He will be glorified even as my life fades for just one person. This brings me to the scripture K posted and C.S Lewis wrote in his timeless classic - The Weight of Glory.

II Cor. 4:16 -   Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. (NIV)

Though I may not be able to see any purpose at all, the imperative remains to trust the eternal weight of glory in Christ our Lord is being done. It is independent of any circumstance, if only we allow.

Lastly, the mantra of the accountability/support group I attended was the verse from Ecclesiastes 4. Two of the strands mentioned are you and me. The third is God to ensure no break. So what is the problem? What do you do when so isolated there are only two strands … You and the Lord?

Though very heartbreaking, recall He never leaves or forsakes. The "program" was started at a particular church. Those who attended this church would call and text each throughout the week for support/accountability. The group was supposed to do this for all. Sadly, this did not happen as I was contacted less than a handful of times.

When the doctor changed my medication about two years ago things really went sideways. The clinical depression became overwhelming and I quit attending. I never heard a word from any of the "accountability group."

The doctor wanted to hospitalize me the depression was so consuming. This all broke my heart. I have never been back. However during those two unimaginable months, I heard from some of you here on CB one on one. You have been His hands and feet.

It breaks God's heart seeing me and others excluding or ignoring hurting brothers, sisters, and the world when capable of reaching out. Yet, often our "busy schedules" and comfort zone block the Spirit from truly directing.

Similar to seeing the same people again and again performing gifts of service and kindness at church: cooking, cleanning, dishes, grounds upkeep, maintenance, and community outreach as Christ's body. Finally, so worn they stop when given no chance to rest by others.  We must pray the Lord of the harvest sends workers into the harvest and answer the call as able.

How to appropriately end? Giving thanks for our mighty God and Savior, Christ Jesus Who came not to condemn the world but save and provide life everlasting … for He is able. The title are words spoken to me recently and sure each of you have heard as well. They remain just that - words unless moved to act in Jesus Name.

Jude 1:24, 25 - To him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you before his glorious presence without fault and with great joy— to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, power and authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forevermore! Amen. (NIV)

Now Unto Him

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John Knox+

I have said this I believe, if not I say it here. Reading your blogs I sense a deep presence of the Lord surrounding me. Thank you for the glory your blogs bring to me.

joyce+

What God let me know, I wanted to treat Him as genie. To grant my prayers (wishes) even not knowing if I would put others in captivity.

Wow Les, this has hit me like a tonne of bricks. I have never heard it put better.
I agree with John, the depth of the presence of God in your writing is astounding, and there are many who do not have your struggles who do not have the light of God in their lives the way you have.
You may not realise it but God is using you in a mighty way to bring about His Glory, and the fact that you know that and praise Him in this your storm, well it moves me to silence.
I know God has poured out His grace on you for we see it. I know that he has anointed you to reassure and encourage others for we feel it here.
You are an absolute joy to know.
.j.

Les B+

Bethy,

Your words are so very kind and I cannot thank you enough for the continued love and encouragement.

In Christ,
Les