... how many time will it take for me to NOT fall into the entrapment of the same sin?? Its been way to long to say I don't know the sign's, Cause I do and yet I don't seems to know how to say no, to turn and run the other way. How does one say no, when every thing says yes and yet being a follower of Christ know that its not God's best for me, does it anyway... Oh what a wretched woman am I! Or at lest I feel like it. Its odd to me to that I have the very one that can bring life and true freedom living on the inside of me and yet I still am living like someone who does not know Christ. I'm reminded of what Paul said... For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. Romans 7:15 So even though I really do "hate" this bondage of sin I can not seem to escape its grip, by why? Why do I give in so willingly at time and at other time I fight like my life depended on it. I'm also reminded ... Do you not know that to whom you present yourselves slaves to obey, you are that one s slaves whom you obey, whether of sin leading to death, or of obedience leading to righteousness? Romans 6:16 As I read this I seen something I'd never seen before... Who ever I am "slave" to will lead me to death or to righteousness. So that means that each time I obey and not give in to sin, I am one step closer to being free and winning the battle. So now this is where grace come in... God's grace...what a thought... but how can He for give me for what I've done... I also thought of when Jesus told the Pharisees " He who is without sin among you, let him throw a stone at her first." All of a sudden I heard... you don't even have the right to throw stone's at yourself... Romans 8:1-3 says... 1 There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus,[a] who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit. 2 For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death. So then not only can I not beat myself up over sin, but Jesus does not condemn me ether... His grace is truly sufficient for me... what a wonderful mystery the cross of Christ is, amazing grace how sweet the song that save a wretch like me, I was lost by now I'm found, I was once was blind but now I see... No matter what I think or feel I am under the blood of Christ... there is no other place I'd ever want to be! Praise God in the highest!!!