I'm dealing with a few things that I'd rather not the last few weeks. I have to move from the place that God moved me to in Jan of this year and My aunt is holding on to dear life as I write this, she has a brain hemorrhage a weeks ago and now they don't know if she will pull though and if she does she will not be able to do anything. Then there's my dad... last Feb he had a psychic brake and in one weekend tried to kill my mom and himself, thank God he did nether, but now is in Portland Oregon at a mental hospital not knowing who his family really is then if that's not enough I found out last night that the man I thought would become my husband some day is still not divorced and is a Mormon (not that I have thing against that, Its not how I believe) He never told me any of this and he has two kids and on top of that he is planing on moving to TX and says that he has to "heal" and even thought he "loves" me he can't be with me and then tells me that he'll look me up in a few years and see if I'm "free" if he is "free" then he'll think about marring me. I just don't think I can handle any more... I've always be able to just go to God and sit at His feet and give it all to Him...but for some reason this time I am just really overwhelmed. My roommate says that I am not walking in faith... I'm trying to walk in faith, not what I see, but what the word of God says, and yet I keep finding myself in fear of what's to come or where I'm going to end up. But I must trust every thing Jesus ever said about Him being a loving and knowing God. He does know my heart and I want to know His. I will go where ever He wants me to be. I"m trying to not look at things that have not changed yet, God knows what plans He has for me, He says so in His word. My heart may faint or weak, but the Lord of host is strong in power and love and will not let me go, but will up hold me in His righteous right hand. This I must trust, because He alone is worthy and He is not a man that He should lie. I like what Psalm 27 says : 1) The Lord is my light and my salvation, Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life;of whom shall I be afraid? 2) When the wicked came against me to eat up my flesh, my enemies and foes, they stumbled and fell 3) Though an army may encamp against me, My heart shall not fear; though war may rise against me, in this I will be confident. 4) One thing I have desired of the Lord, that will I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord, and to inquire in His temple. 5) For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion; In the secret place of His tabernacle He shall hide me; He shall set me high upon a rock. Lord help my heart to not fear, for you Lord with with me. Amen. These songs seems fitting for how I feel right now... I sing a simple song of love To my Savior, to my Jesus. I'm grateful for the things You've done, My loving Savior, my precious Jesus. My heart is glad that You've called me Your own. There's no place I'd rather be than In Your arms of love, In Your arms of love. I sing a simple song of love To my Savior, to my Jesus. I'm grateful for the things You've done, My loving Savior, my precious Jesus. Holding me still, holding me near, In Your arms of love ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ [url= I don't understand Your ways Oh but I will give You my song Give You all of my praise You hold on to all my pain With it You are pulling me closer And pulling me into Your ways Now around every corner And up every mountain I'm not looking for crowns Or the water from fountains I'm desperate in seeking, frantic believing That the sight of Your face Is all that I need I will say to You It's gonna be worth it It's gonna be worth it It's gonna be worth it all I believe this It's gonna be worth it It's gonna be worth it It's gonna be worth it all I believe this You're gonna be worth it You're gonna be worth it You're gonna be worth it all I believe this You're gonna be worth it You're gonna be worth it You're gonna be worth it all I believe this
Sister Hispainolady, nothing in this world is perfect because we live in a fallen world. But the Lord promises to be with us in sorrow and in pain, He will meet all our needs and help us along life's way if we will trust and seek Him.
We must also learn to hear what He has to say in all matters of our lives so that we will walk the way of God, way that will lead to joy and peace. Do continue to seek Him more in the days and weeks ahead, let Him show you His love and His concern for you. May His love heal your heart so that there will hope and new purpose to live on.
Thanks for sharing
From Hwa Silverpen
It is easy for someone to say you are not walking in faith when they are not walking that road themselves. :wink:
Just because you cry out to God in your distress does not mean you have faith. Indeed, you must ask yourself this question. Would you be crying out to God if you did NOT have faith? I don't know about you but if I did not have faith in God's promises, I would certainly not be crying out to Him, LOL!
I believe in being honest with God. When we are confused, hurt, angry, etc. I do not believe there is anything wrong with telling Him that. He knows it anyway and if we refuse to be honest with Him... then how can He help us deal with our feelings? To deny how we feel... well... isn't that in essence attempting to lie to God? There is a difference between expressing your feelings (I don't like this one bit, God and I wish I didn't have to go through this) and rebelling against God. There really is. It is okay to cry in the arms of God and I believe that if we are to victoriously go through things, we must!
Though you do not understand and though the road is a bit rough at the moment, you are continuing to seek God and reach out to Him. That... is trusting God... no matter what.
Thank you for sharing of your heart, dear Sister. Continue to step out in faith and trust in the Lord fully-knowing that He gives the Holy Spirit without measure. Glory! Our prayers out to you and your family and God Bless you richly! Dave