I can't sleep tonight

Tonight I went to bed and cut off the light. I was all snug in the covers when memories of my sweetheart came flooding back into my mind. I jumped up and turned on the light. You see, my wife of 37 years and 4 months went to be with The Lord on October 7th this year. She was the love of my life. We were married when we were babies it seems. I am having a hard time coping without her by my side.

Today I realized that I would give everything, I mean everything, my savings, my 401k, my IRA and sale my property and give every dime just to have her back for one week! I loved that girl. But I also know that she would not come back to this world if you offered her a mansion in Beverly Hills, a billion dollar bank account, and perfect health. She is with Jesus now. She is beholding His glory. She is in the place we dream of being.

I am comforted by these thoughts as long as I keep my eyes open. My friends here at CB prayed for me and my family and I am very thankful for that. I needed K telling me to keep trusting in The Lord and I did. If only I was here B2Y could have walked me through the times I was completely falling apart. Bethy could have sung me a song and that would have given me great comfort.

Maybe I am blogging because I am stalling on going back to bed. Well, here goes!

Blessings,

justalight

Shani Matthews @shanijane ·

You know... I've just worked out who this is... Welcome home my friend! I'm really sorry to hear of your loss, I pray that God just loves up on you and comforts you in your grief. Alight, we have missed you and we have spoken of you often. Love ya mate!

Shirley Hooper @mumbly ·

Hi Alight, You have been so missed here at CB. I am so very sorry to hear about your loss, and can certainly put a hand on your shoulder, and tell you that I do know what you are going through. I also lost the love of my life, my dearest husband, many yrs ago.

How my heart goes out to you, in sympathy, and Christian love. I found that the Lord was so faithful as always, and He gave me great comfort , as I know He will give to you also. It is very deep water to be going through, but I got some comfort knowing that God does know what He is doing, even when our hearts are breaking. So let yourself grieve, dear brother in Christ, for it is very very early days for you, and it is only natural that you will be missing the love of your life.

Your CB friend ..mumbly

Kirk M @blessings2you ·

Welcome home dear friend. My heart has ached knowing of your pain and the ordeal you have endured for many years. It is over now and I rejoice that you have made your way back here to where your friends and spiritual family are. We have prayed a million prayers for your situation and now it is time to find the comfort and encouragement friends and family provide. I sincerely pray you set up your tent and move in here for awhile and allow the love of God manifested by so many to help heal your heart and fill the emptiness you live with.

K Reynolds @kreynolds ·

My heart aches terribly for you, my friend. The road you have traveled and are traveling even now is very difficult but you do not have to walk it alone... unless you choose to.

What Mums said is so true.

[quote]It is very deep water to be going through, but I got some comfort knowing that God does know what He is doing, even when our hearts are breaking. So let yourself grieve, dear brother in Christ, for it is very very early days for you, and it is only natural that you will be missing the love of your life.[/quote]

Blessings and Prayers,

K :princess:

Billy Beard @billyb ·

My condolences. "beholding His glory". What a time that will be. I do hope you find much comfort in the friends here, and there. God be with You.

Joyce Bethy Ferguson @bethy ·

Its not often I am lost for words ( you can testify to that), but today I have absolutely no words to offer you. I am so sorry my friend, so very sorry. There is a verse in a song that simply says this...

O Joy that seekest me through pain,
I cannot close my heart to thee;
I trace the rainbow through the rain,
And feel the promise is not vain,
That morn shall tearless be.

I pray that he who seekest you through pain will be your comfort and your joy.

bethy.
Raynard Shellow @iraqivetsgtret ·

my condolences to you my brother. your blog not only made me think of my wife of 5 years but her aunt and uncle. they have been married for 37 years now and she is currently in the hospital. I seen both of them yesterday with my wife. seeing him show affection to his wife made me almost cry. be blessed

Dwight Alight Davis @justalight ·

Thanks guys for the prayers and encouraging words. I know that I will not be very good company for a while so bare with me please.

Alight