What In the world happened?

For a few years I was a regular here at CB and tragedy hit my home/my life... . my wife died of cancer. I loved her so much. I got angryat God for taking her away from me. OK, I admit it... . I was so upset with God that I turned away from Him. Not completely of course... . I'm stupid not crazy! Tonight I wrote my son-in-law because my only daughter will not speak to me. I remarried! My wife now is my best friend. She makes me happy again. I write this blog with one of her three cats laying on my arm... . purring. I wasn't a cat person but now I'm snuggled up to a cat!

Tomorrow I will go put new flowers on my wife's grave. I've been putting pinkones (Brest cancer) but now I want to put flowers according to the seasons. I found some beautiful fall flowers and am excited to make a change. I emailed my son-in-law and told him what I was going to do. If they had any objections I would not do it. He may answer me orhe may not. He loves my daughter and I'm grateful for that.

Anyhow, im still alive! I am still going to church. I still read the scriptures. I still pray. I wish I were back loving God with all my heart. Im not there yet. My daughter has hurt me so much on top of my wife dying. We did not raise her that way so I believe she will forgive me for remarrying one day. Until then I will struggle. It's been two years since she lasttalked to me.

Now I have another cat purring up next to me! I'm a dog person! What in the world has happened to me? Maybe I have gone crazy!

alight

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John B. Abela+

sometimes all we can be is a lighthouse... always there letting others see the light... and pretty much nothing else. it is a lonely task in life, but the light is what saves folks.

Beth+

Oh, alight!

I am so sorry about your daughter!

We too, are dog people, and a cat showed up under our weeping willow tree several years ago. Perhaps it's just God's way of showing us that things change. We are now dog people who like one particular cat named Jehosacat.

I am so glad to see you!

We will hold you up in prayer... knowing that His arms are open wide, but He is patient. ..

So very patient. Cuz you're worth all the treasures on earth.

Welcome back... home.

:heart:

K Reynolds+

:welcome: BacK!

I am a cat person, though I like dogs too. Sigh... we have not had a dog since 1990 though. I have had a cat almost continuously though since 1986. There were a couple of catless weeks in there after our 17 year old cat passed away but then Nix came to live with us. He is now 12 years old, though you wouldn't know it.

I will pray that God restores your relationship with your daughter. The two of you have suffered much over the years as I know your wife had battled cancer valiantly for a number of years. It takes a long time to heal and even then, there are scars.

You know, my mother was widowed at age 40 after my dad passed away from colon cancer in 1977. For a number of years, I was perfectly happy that she was not seeing anyone and indeed seemed way to busy to have time to even think about a relationship. Now though, I really wish she would have found someone to share her life with. It's not that she sits around in a room brooding all day. She is active, is still working as a substitute teacher, is involved in her church and so forth. She took care of her mom until she passed away about 10 years ago and my unmarried brother now lives with her as well so she is not living alone. Still, I look at her married friends and I sometimes see a bit of a wistful look in her eye. In retrospect, I have to say that I think it would have been really nice if she had not been alone all of these years. I hope your daughter will realize that your marriage does not mean that you did not love her mother nor is it a rejection of her.

Blessings!

K :princess:

John Knox+

:welcome: back for you have been missed for your insightful blogs and comments. Praise God that he has seen you through a difficult time for his Love will never let us go. I am sharing your joy in the Lord.

wmj

Ruby Johnson

Dwight, I know your pain, but allowing God to do what he does is what is needed for you. You know when we are trying to figure things out God has already worked it out. Remember He is omnipresent, omniscient, He knew you and your story before you were born but the beauty of it is you are not alone. Who are we to judge God who has done so much for us, yes we are human but the reality is He is God, I am. It is not about us but him. God is perfecting you for your next Glory the enemy is preying because he does not want you to gain that next glory. Dwight I love you and so does God. My mom died when I was 15, a time when a girl needs a mother. my father remarried a year later, and as hard as that was for me I still gave God praise and loved my father on earth because this did not just happen to me but to him as well, if your daughter loves God she will return. Self can drag things out but God is waiting to step in when you allow Him. I read a book by Larry Jones of the Feed the Children Org. called 15 second secret concerning faith, taking 15 seconds when your problems are getting the best of you and pray. tank and praise God. I believe that one second is more powerful. Give God one second because he has given us many more, one second could save your life. My prayers are with you Dwight and you family. There is nothing impossible for God if you allow him. Yesterday is gone-Love

joyce+

You said; " Maybe I have gone crazy!"

My Friend, I could have told you that years ago !

It is so good to hear from you again. It is so good to hear you have found happiness again.

But changing from a dog person to a cat person? Next thing you will be taking up golf with all the other crazies!. Oh wait! (duh)

Seriously though, you made my day by seeing you here.

.b.

Les B+

As you pre-date me ... I join in saying welcome back :welcome:

I pray God continues to lift and restore your life.

In Him,
Les

Sandy Brooks

Thrilled to hear from you Alight!

When I lost my brother it took me 5years to even begin to come back to God. I'm thankful He is so patient.

Give your daughter time (talk to Blest). It will take her time too, but We will pray that God melts her angry heart and she will once again love you as her Father.

Hope to hear from you again soon.

Blessings

Pooh/Sandy

Kirk M+

What can I say brother, other than it is so very good to hear from you. Although in our messed up minds we think it is justifiable to be mad at God when things go wrong, it is never right. God did not take your beloved wife, cancer did. God did not cause your daughter to not talk to you, the pain in her heart did. God only wants you and your daughter to come and rest in His arms so He can bring healing to your hearts. Oh I will pray this will happen. I wish I were healthy, I would come over there and give you a big God hug. But since I am confined to home duty, all I can do is pray that both you and your daughter allow God to bring you comfort and closure regarding Dale.

Praying for you brother.
Kirk