Faith or Fear - a Personal Choice!

Over the years the blogs and comments I have read at ChristianBlog.com have drawn a variety of responses from me. They have taken me from one end of the spectrum to the other – from great joy, to sadness. Because of some things I have read today I write of something that I learned when faced with what I now know to be the most important decision I could make other than accepting Christ as my Saviour. We sing with great gusto “I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to take that which I’ve committed unto Him against that day”. Then again, there is “I have confidence in God alone” or “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” and so on. We sing them (or songs like them) at Church with the glowing worship team and instrumentalists trying to arouse the spirit that would rather have stayed in bed. One of the things that became very clear to me as a worship leader was that there was no way whatsoever in which I could ‘bring’ people into the throne room of God. My responsibility was to draw/lead the congregation to the door. The choice of whether to enter or not came down to the individual. It is this choice that we each have to make that so often becomes a stumbling block in our walk with God. It is far easier to remain with the ‘nothing good ever really happens to me’ than it is to cast off the mantle of darkness and self-doubt and walk in faith. How many times do we declare our faith in God, then almost immediately follow that up with declaration after declaration of doubt that God can do anything to change our a circumstances? The walk we have with God is directly affected by the words that we utter, the words that come from the very depth of our being. Understand this, I am not talking about the ‘fly away’ comments that barely touch our spirits before they disappear. I am talking about the words we express from the centre of our being. Those words that are the true declaration of our faith in God and his ability to move in our lives to an extent that we cannot even imagine. There were four words that changed my life. Four words that I heard uttered by a minister of the gospel whom I have heard derided by many. When I took those words into my spirit my whole approach - my whole life - changed, and nothing since that time has had such a dramatic effect on me in mind, body or in spirit. What are those words I hear you ask? Simply, ‘I REFUSE TO FEAR’. 2 Timothy 1:7 says “God has not given us a spirit of fear but a spirit of power, love and a sound mind” and it follows that fear and faith cannot work alongside one another. I have to walk in faith, or walk in fear. The occasion of this revelation was the knowledge that there was something very wrong going on in my head (trust me here, the headaches were a VERY big clue). It was at that time, before I had any results, that I chose life over death, that I chose faith over fear. When I say ‘life over death’ I do not mean that I wandered around saying “I am healed”. That wasn’t it at all. I simply chose life/faith over death/fear. I chose to live in the belief that God himself had everything that was me held firmly within his hands. That being the case, any doubts, fears and uncertainty could not get even a toehold in my mind. We have heard the confidence builder “How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time!” and other sayings spouted out by others and sometimes (when we are trying to be ‘helpful’) by us. God please forgive me for the number of times I have spouted out drivel under the pretext of encouraging others. What I discovered when I made the decision to choose life was that the 4x4x3cm brain tumour ceased to have any importance in my life. The ‘authority’ of the tumour ceased to exist and because of that the peace of God filled me in body, mind and spirit. To walk in life/faith is not a one time decision. It is a declaration that has to be maintained constantly. We need to realise that just because in that moment we affirmed our trust in God, the enemy is not going to give up on trying to destroy our peace. However, one of the easiest ways of undermining what we have declared to be the truth eg “God has everything in his control” can be immediately negated by the next thing we declare eg “I’m scared that ...”. Where is our life/faith if we negate the truth of God’s word by doubting his ability. Simply put, there is no room for fear, there is no room for doubt. When we hand God who and what we are, and the circumstances we find ourselves in, our expectations should be that he WILL deal with everything – in His way and in His time. How do I know this works? Because I have lived it over the past four years. Keeping my focus on God required constant readjustment on a moment by moment basis. Allowing the enemy to get a toehold was not an option because I had given God the authority. I never had a clue whether I would live or die during surgery but the thought never entered my mind. I was overwhelmed with peace and the most incredible joy. It didn’t matter what anyone else thought, this was God and me, eyeball to eyeball. I experienced for the first time a treasure which I carry with me and share when the opportunity arises. I experienced the heart of God. (The photograph was taken a few minutes before the brain surgery)

@kreynolds
K Reynolds @kreynolds ·

As I read this, I could "hear" your voice. Last night something triggered fear and I remembered the many conversations we have had. I thought about the times that you have told me those words, "I refuse to fear" and the times you have called me up short when I have undermined faith by declaring with my next breath, "But I'm afraid that..." Thank you for loving me enough to set me straight when I need straightening out, TT!

I wanted to let you know that God has used your blog to reinforce what He has already told me. "Wherever I am, He is... and all is well." And it is.

K :princess:

@billyb
Billy Beard @billyb ·

I have been blessed through the years with good health. The years of abuse that are only due to my neglect, are starting to show in aches and pains. I have no fear in where all that will lead, though. Like everyone else, I hope nothing in that regard is too great a financial burden on the family, but we never know all the why's and how's. We don't fear about such as all that.

My 'only' fear, is that I give back to my Lord, less than I should. Not in regards to salvation, but, because of it. He deserves nothing less than my heart, soul, mind and strength, in my love for Him. I am bought at such great price.

As are you. Sister, God Bless your walk of "faith". billy

@poodlelady
Sandy Brooks @poodlelady ·

"The ‘authority’ of the tumour ceased to exist and because of that the peace of God filled me in body, mind and spirit."

Kibird this is what I've been trying to say and couldn't find the right words or put into words what I felt and have it make sence.

In a conversation with my daughter in-law the other day I told her "I know it sounds crazy ,because this is cancer, but I have enjoyed this Journey inspite of the fears I "had" inspite of the pain and weariness and inconveniences. It has been a Journey of learning like none other.

The cancer has not been the emphasis of the Journey but God's love and knowing He has been there every step of the way has been my delight in this whole thing.

Blessings
pooh

@kiwibird
Alison Stewart @kiwibird ·

[quote]The cancer has not been the emphasis of the Journey but God's love and knowing He has been there every step of the way has been my delight in this whole thing.[/quote]

Pooh! I am thrilled that you have found this place of peace where your circumstances have been unable to overcome the truth of God's word. In God we have peace in abundance. So often we miss out because we are looking in the wrong direction.

[quote]The cancer has not been the emphasis of the Journey but God's love and knowing He has been there every step of the way has been my delight in this whole thing.[/quote]

Hallelujah! Thank you, Jesus!

&
kbird

Err...the rereading was like seeing the words you wrote for the first time so the second time I read it (or was it the third!) I felt I needed to quote you. It was only afterwards I realised they were the same words. They are very important though so they deserve quoting twice :mrgreen:

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Tan Yeowhwa @silverpen ·

Yes, it's so easy to give in to fear in bad situations. But as you have rightly say, we must make decisions everyday not to fear and not to give into fear. Having faith in God is a daily decision. :wink:

May the Lord grant strength to us when we are weak, hope when we are down, and His peace in all circumstances.

Thanks for sharing, Sister Kiwibird

Blessings always

From Hwa Silverpen

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Tina Edwin @tinaesanil ·

This blog has inspired me a lot dear sister.Than you so much for sharing this with us.Lots to study from you.God bless you immensely !

Im really blessed to meet people like you.

Love Tina :flower:

@day2day
Grey Warner @day2day ·

You know me and my love affair with fear...a love/hate relationship really...I HATE it but cannot seem to live without it. Thank you for your blog. It has ministered to me and I will keep it in heart and mind in the days ahead. You are truly a blessing and I am so thankful. I am praying for you!

@kiwibird
Alison Stewart @kiwibird ·

Aah! d2d, my friend, I apologise for the delay in replying to your comment.

I do know of you and your close acquaintance with this nasty little 'thing' called fear. It is an experience that I have been through many times and it took a different approach (via the brain tumour diagnosis!) to encourage me to walk out the promises of God. I am so glad that this blog has been a blessing to you.

You are an overcomer, my friend, and anyone or any thing that would try to tell you otherwise is speaking from the enemy's camp. You have heard me speak of going eyeball to eyeball with God and it has occurred to me as I type, that sometimes we need eyeball surgery! Oh, for the eyes of an eagle - fastened on the goal and unable to be deflected by periferal vision.

Blessings
kbird

@christinerose
Christine Mvundla @christinerose ·

"To walk in life/faith is not a one time decision. It is a declaration that has to be maintained constantly. We need to realise that just because in that moment we affirmed our trust in God, the enemy is not going to give up on trying to destroy our peace.", Thank you so much for your blogs. I am so blessed that l can go back and read all these wonderful blogs written here. Its like i have some sort of library l go to read when I am sad. For sure i get spiritual upliftment. I have recently been asking questions. That quote answered everything. As my faith grows the devil will keep fighting. I am going to with this fight of faith. If God is with me who can be against me.

Thank you

@christinerose
Christine Mvundla @christinerose ·

Amen

@watchmanjohn
John Knox @watchmanjohn ·

:thumbs_up: :thumbs_up: :thumbs_up: :clap: :dance:Nothing else to add.

wmj

@rwpyuen
Raymond Yuen @rwpyuen ·

Great sharing. Yes. This is a very encouraging message, and this sharing is with divine wisdom. Believe that it is GOD directly inspire to you, my sister, to give you encouragement. GOD's love to you is gorgeous.

Thanks.

1 John 4:18 There is no fear in love.

And GOD is love. So, There is no fear in GOD.

Blessing to all of us because we have love (GOD).

Praise the LORD for HIS love.

In Christ love, Amen!

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