In the sense that it is five years today since I was successfully treated for the removal of a brain tumour the size of a small orange, it is time for reflection and for celebration. To my mind however, this is something that has taken place every day since that time.
The headaches were a big enough clue to know that something was badly wrong inside my skull. What I was unaware of at the time though, was that the particular medical issue that had reared it’s ugly head (pardon the pun) would lead to a life changing event that I walk in on a daily basis even five years later. I can’t see it, I can’t feel it, but I KNOW with every fibre of my being that it is there.
The ‘condition’ of which I speak is refusal to fear. While waiting for the results of the diagnostic scan, God reminded me of four words I had heard uttered a few years before. I too spoke out those words as I walked out onto the deck to gaze at the beauty of the valley. Phone in hand to ring the doctor back, I knew that the news was not good but I also knew the nothing and no-one was going to take away my belief that God was and always would be my protector and my peace.
Although I was unaware of it at the time, my life changed that day as, without knowing why, I realised that 100% of my focus had to be on God. If my focus was entirely on God, there would be no room for negative thoughts, doubts or fears. Although my family struggled to work through the changing circumstances, they were buoyed up by the realisation that I was completely at peace.
As negative thoughts tried to gain a claw hold in my mind, the authority I have in Christ had become real and those things which were not of God were quickly dispatched to a place where I was not going to be. By ‘quickly’, I literally mean no more than two or three words. There never was and never will be any way of my living in complete peace in Christ while dabbling in the thoughts of the world.
Some eighteen months ago the discovery of a second tumour (albeit a very small one) on the site of the first one was unexpected but experience has taught me that there was no more cause for fear at that time than when the first tumour was diagnosed. God is not around just for special occasions. He is with us ALL of the time and when we are eyeball to eyeball with him then absolutely nothing can get in the way. Wandering off at a tangent or listening to the doubts and fears of others are choices we make.
As we walk through life, misery is merely an option. We are not immune to the effects of a fallen world but we do have the opportunity to live life on the path of peace.
As I read your blog, I thought about back when you had your surgery as well as the many conversations we have had about fear. I know from personal experience that not only to do you refuse to allow fear to gain a foothold in your own life; you send fear packing in the lives of others as well. You remind me of Mrs. Valiant in the classic "Hinds Feet In High Places" who single-handedly routed out what she called a pack of idle Fearings out of the cottage of poor Much-Afraid.
Thank you for the reminder.
[quote]As we walk through life, misery is merely an option.[/quote] I like this.
Glory be to God it is exactly as you say when our eyes and confidence are on and in Him. A wonderful testimony . . . thank you for sharing.
Your Brother in Christ,
Yes, continue to trust Him more and more. He knows all of our pain and sorrow and also He knows what comes and when bad things happen to us. Yet He never leave or forsake us as long as we do not give up.
So press on, never give up and walk the journey of faith step by step, little by little to the end.
Thanks for sharing, Sister Kiwibird
From Hwa Silverpen
[quote]So press on, never give up and walk the journey of faith step by step, little by little to the end[/quote]
Hwa Silverpen ... I think I need this printed on a large poster in my kitchen! The key is not giving up ... Never!
You are such a blessing! Thank you SO MUCH for the reminder and sharing your inspirational story. So much truth... so hard to practice! I heard somewhere recently that the quality of our life is the gift we give ourselves. It sounds like you are making each moment one of quality! Big hug to you and by the way... I love the picture!