One of the issues that has followed me around over the past several years has been that of changes in my throat/vocal chords. I spent many years in different roles as part of worship teams but it was about seven years ago that I realised I finally had to hang up my public singing hat until and unless God was going to do something to change the circumstances. Please, don t misunderstand me. I am completely open to the healing power of God but I am also aware that it is God s timing through which things are made perfect. Anyway, my swan song was my daughter s wedding, at which time I decided my voice would make its last public appearance. As part of a trio (with Irish and Kiwigirl) I was blessed to be part of that very special event. Since that time, however, my singing voice is only raised in the occasional harmony and because of the effect on my throat, it is quickly quelled. I have come to realise over the past year or two in particular, that it is not what is heard audibly that counts but what comes from my heart. God knows my circumstances. He is in control of what happens to me because I give him that authority. I may no longer be able to vocalise my praise and worship but that of itself is no stumbling block. The stumbling block would be in thinking that circumstances prevent me from doing the things that God desires me to do. As long as I am on this earth I have a heart to worship and no-one and nothing can remove it. My songs of praise will not be audible to man but God can hear me that that is what counts.
You should come yodel at our church!
God hears your song and so do I! Believe me, I do.
Someday you and I will stand together in His presence and I will hear you sing like you have never sung before!
My goodness but it would break my heart to not be able to sing. If I have a sore throat and can't sing for a few days... Well, it's not good.
This is a good perspective to have, what you have written, I mean. Another level of maturity for me to aspire to.
kiwibird, I'm so glad you stated that it is the "song in the heart" and not the "sound from the throat" that pleases God. I notice people in song services who just won't lend their voices to worshiping God because they are embarrassed by their singing voice. I too am sure I don't have the talent to sing beautifully, as you and others do. But it makes no difference to God. Sing to praise Him!
Ahh this is really beautifully written. "The song in my heart", I like that.
Amen and amen. Let the praise of God comes from all our being and from all of our soul. I'm sure that the Lord is pleased when He sees the true intention of our hearts.
Thanks for sharing, sister Kiwibird
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I hear you, I know how it feels. I will sing in my head. Not so long ago one night when I was doing this, God said my name. It came from deep inside my head. It feels strange I cannot put it into words.
Not so long ago I prayed, Lord I lost my rhythm, lost my song, and I can t get it back. You see I went to music school my desire to sing gospel but evil forces would not have it, the school had other ideas, first of all they always changed the scales then it was all wrong for my voice and within a dream He came saying your key is F. I know what God wants from me, to sing. How I will get there I am not too sure yet. I can t go back to that school. They were more interested in commenting on what I looked like just because I don t expose enough skin.
That is when my song died for a second time and I am still trying to get it back. Baby steps at a time day by day, but I won t forget the magic of my voice when I was walking singing about the Holy Spirit and the candle inside, the day I was claimed. He made me a promise.
Wow thank you for sharing! Yes I agree God is in control-- He knows what's best for all of us.
Your blog reminds me of a song by Matt Redman The Heart of Worship!
Some lyrics from the song
When the music fades, all is stripped away, and I simply come
Longing just to bring something that s of worth that will bless your heart
I m coming back to the heart of worship, and it s all about You, Jesus
There were two words in particular that struck me about the lyrics.
[quote]I .. come[/quote]
These days I have to take things down to the 'lowest common denominator' in order to 'fix' them in my heart, and to me these two simple words encompass all God is asking of me. I come.
Thank you for sharing this. You've written a wonderful message in a very short amount of words -- a message that relates to all of us in one way or another. *And on a side note, I noticed a beautiful image with a Credit to you @ K 's article [i]A Well Watered Garden[/i]. It's so beautiful... what is its name?
Thank you Enje25, I appreciate your comments. When we allow our circumstances to totally come under God's authority, the world is a very different place!
The tree you have asked about is a Pohutukawa Tree. (try Paw hoo too car wah!) It is often referred to as the New Zealand Christmas tree. I agree with you, in flower it is absolutely beautiful.
As a singer, I can imagine what you are feeling but be encouraged. When I sing, I am singing to the Lord and just allowing others to eavesdrop on my worship. Jesus told the Samaritan woman at the well that the externals are not important. God is Spirit and He was seeking those who will worship Him in spirit and in truth. The song of our spirit is the most beautiful praise that fills the ears of God. Your spirit sings beautiful yet silent songs of love to Him as you minister to those around you in what ever ways the Spirit leads. This is our truest service of worship.
In prayer for you,
I just noticed this blog is from September 2011! That is almost 2 years ago! How are you doing now?