Broken And Yet...

When I look in the mirror, I am not greeted by a pretty sight... LOL!
I may say that I am a :princess: of God but to the physical eye, nothing could be further from the truth.
As if it was not already enough to struggle with weight issues...um... big ones... for most of my adult life, over the past few years, my body has taken a real beating which no one ... I repeat... no one should have to endure but so many do.

Weeks of dose-dense chemotherapy and radiation have taken their toll on my body. While the hair does grow back and the skin recovers, there are "scars"... evidence of what I endured. I've had permanent damage done to my toe nails as well as neuropathy as a result of one of the chemo drugs. I am very thankful that my dominant hand was never affected in the least. Neuropathy returned to a portion of my left hand last March. Fortunately, it has not interfered with my ability to type and is more of an annoyance than anything else. My hair, which was always very fine, came back even thinner and more delicate.

Residual problems are common after chemotherapy and radiation. I won't go into them all. I think you've gotten the picture. Those residual effects combined with the residual affects of my SAH and stroke means yes, I am indeed a cracked and somewhat broken vessel.

God loves broken vessels...

You see, when we recognize that we are indeed cracked and broken, we have a choice. We can continue to limp along in denial or we can place ourselves in the hands of the Potter.

The Potter (God) can do amazing things with broken vessels. I've seen Him do it in the lives of some of my friends and I have watched Him do it with mine. Always remember... there is not a single "cracked and broken pot" that God cannot transform into a beautiful vessel fit for His use... regardless of how the world sees it.

Blessings!

K :princess:

Eileen Algaze @ladyvogue ·

Your still standing K :princess: and your still fighting. Im sadden to hear the return of your battle. God is with you. Love you and praying for you and your family.

Shani Matthews @shanijane ·

k. i just wanna walk over there a give you a massive hug. You amaze me beautiful one. through such adversity, you stand tall, firm and strong in your faith. ive said it soooooo many times, but you really are one of my rolemodels! my prayers are with ya as you go through this season lovely.