Looking back 19 months later, I marvel at God's response to this "dangerous prayer". Since writing this blog, God has provided me with the opportunity to minister to other women with breast cancer, minister to caregivers, minister to people through my Survivors of Chronic Disease group here at CB. I also am now running Princesses of God here at CB which is a ministry group for women. Has it been worth it? Absolutely and just think...the very best is about to be!
As a child, I remember a Sunday School teacher telling us we should never pray for patience. If we asked God for patience, he would put us in uncomfortable situations where we would have to practice patience. We certainly would not want something like that to happen! I must have only been about seven years old but even at that young of an age, something didn't seem quite right to me. I squirmed uncomfortably and raised my hand to ask a question. "What if God wants us to learn patience? Wouldn't it be bad not too learn patience?" Out of the mouth of babes....
The real question is whether or not we are willing to let God do what he has to do to make us into who he desires us to be. Often the molding process is extremely uncomfortable. In fact, in all probability it is probably never a very comfortable process! This has probably become more clearer to me than ever this past month.
This past fall, I was in a small group study at church. We were reading and discussing the book "In A Pit With A Lion On A Snowy Day" by Mark Batterson. During this study, we were challenged to not be content with just getting by in our relationship with God. We were challenged to take risks. I began pondering exactly what sort of risk God would want me to take.
A little over a month ago, I began to pray about something that had been burning in my heart. After many years in childrens ministry, I was really feeling a need to minister to women. So many are wounded and suffering and my heart would just ache for them. One evening, while driving home, the ache in my heart spilled out in prayer. "God, I want to minister to women in a way I have never done before. I want to make a positive impact in the world around me!"
I didn't care how God would accomplish this, I just wanted him to use me. I recognized that as I minister to others it is reciprocal in that I in turn get ministered to as well.
Little did I know that within just a few days I would be diagnosed with a disease that will affect one out of eight women. Even if treatment is considered successful, for the rest of their lives they will have to live with the possibility that it could return any time and any place.
When I've shared this prayer with friends and family, a few people asked me if I regretted that prayer. I've thought about that carefully. No, in all honesty, I don't regret it. God is taking me on the ride of my life. While it can be very scary and even painful, I am learning some valuable lessons that God has already allowed me to share with others. I am learning that God is on that wild ride with me and if I stay with him, everything will come out okay in the end...no matter what!
Have a blessed and happy new year, everyone! May we all be willing to ride along with God and be wherever he is. May we all impact the world around us everyday.
I remember reading something that Joni Erickson Tada about a prayer she made as a young healthy teenager. The prayer was asking that God find a way to help her draw closer to Him.
Then she broke her neck. The rest of the story most people know by now.
God allowed Satan to torment Job. The why of God's ways we will never know will be are here on this earth with our finite minds.
Thanks for sharing and you truly are a blessing to women.
Someone once said "it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" Playing it "safe" is like never having loved at all.
Thanks for taking us on that ride with you K so many have learned so much by just riding along.
I understand what you are saying, but let me remind everyone that it is Satan who kills, steals, and destroys.
(John 10:10) If you are an active participant in the kingdom of God, then the devil is going to try and find a way to take you out. (Ephesians 6:12-18) We must know our enemy and pray against the kingdom of darkness. Jesus said we would have trials and temptations, but he would never leave us nor forsake us. He asked Father God not to take us out of this world but to protect us from the evil one. (John 17:5) He knows our enemy better than we do. He created the anointed cherub, and was there when Lucifer turned his back on him and launched an attack. Jesus says he saw Satan falling from heaven like lightening. (Rev. 12:7-9, Isaiah 14:12-16 and Luke 10:18) Good news is that Jesus is now sitted at the right hand of the Father. He is making sure himself that the prayer of protection is answered. He sends giant warrior angels to help protect us!
The only way not to be tested and tried by the fire, is to sit back and do nothing for God's kingdom. Don't tell anyone about Jesus. Don't help out in any ministry at church. Don't help any person down trodden and in need. In other words be a hearer only and not a doer, decieving your ownselves. (James 1:22) I don't know about you, but I can't live that way. The bible says if you are lukewarm, God will spew you out of his mouth! (Rev. 3:16) It is by the blood of Jesus and through our testimonies that we overcome the devil. (Rev. 12:11)
Kreynold's testimony of healing and God's goodness is awesome! It proves that all things work together for those who love Jesus. Keep declaring the goodness of God in the land of the living!!!
Abide in God (John 15) and he will give you what you need inorder to be victorious in this life. Say your warfare prayers daily. Pray without ceasing. Keep up the good fight of faith. (Phillipians 4:6-7)
"Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord has promised to them that love him. James 1:12"
I pray that each of us will not fear but grow in God's awesome love and grace.
[i]*8/18/11--This blog is now part of a series entitled [internallink=http://www.christianblog.com/series/view.php?id=f7d9d7d6db47f71d2bd4ef4cdecbe853]Walking With God In The Midst of Cancer.[/internallink][/i]