A blog written by Kirk M (@blessings2you) entitled Taking That First Step reminded me of the first time I attempted to drive a car after suffering a ruptured brain aneurysm and stroke. I was terrified. I knew I was having trouble interpreting what I was seeing. Things looked "different" and my sense of distance appeared to be wrong as well. I say "appeared" because it seemed that my vision itself was normal but the brain was not interpreting the information quite right. At least I thought so and that was also what the neurologist had told me.
Interestingly enough even though I felt off-kilter when I walked, anyone who observed me said I was walking just fine. I thought I was all over the place but I wasn't. It is sort of hard to explain. I guess when I attempted to do things I had done thousands and perhaps even millions of times before,my "auto-pilot" kicked in and overrode what I "thought".
I was terrified to get behind the wheel again but there was something that terrified me even more and that was not being able to drive any longer. So, I asked my husband to take me to a large empty lot where he could safely assess my driving skills. I did fine and responded appropriately to all commands, could make intricate maneuvers and so forth. Once he was convinced that I was driving fine "by instinct", despite what I thought I saw, he took me out on the road and continued to do so in a variety of situations over the next week or so. When I started to drive on my own, things still weren't looking quite right but I knew that despite that, I was driving just fine. As time went on, things gradually adjusted back to normal.
Since that time, God has had me be a sort of "taxi-service" at times for people who cannot drive or to deliver meals to people who are sick or injured. If I had "stayed in bed" and not dared to take a risk, I would have missed out on some incredible blessings. Taking a risk and trusting God to help me do what I needed to do, even if I believed it to be difficult or impossible, placed me into a position where I could be used by God for His honor and glory.
God is not calling His people to be huddled up in a safe little corner far away from the beach or even in the bottom of the boat. He is calling His people to fix their eyes upon Him, climb out of the boat and get out there on the waves where He is. He is calling us to dare to move. Will we?
This blog and the one you referenced by Kirk @ https://www.christianblog.com/blog/blessings2you/taking-that-first-step/ are blogs from which all of us can benefit, especially those of us dealing with chronic issues.
Thank you and Kirk so much for sharing these "priceless" blogs !
I read your wall post first and was thinking "she should have made that into a blog" Then I came to read the blogs and yup you did make it into a blog!
...and I am a blessed recipient of your wonderful driving!
How you describe this "auto-pilot" is very interesting and quite different from how I might have imagined it. Especially this sentence - "When I started to drive on my own, things still weren't looking quite right but I knew that despite that, I was driving just fine."
Daring to move sums it up very well.
Thanks for this blog and God bless,