God has been taking me on some amazing faith journeys over the past three and a half years. I've gone through cancer treatment, a ruptured brain aneurysm which resulted in a subarachnoid hemorrhage and stroke and now nearly a year and a half later, I am on a medical leave of absence because of some detected cognitive impairment as a result of one or both of these things. At the moment, I am going through the maze of attempting to collect long-term disability. A tough process becomes even tougher when the brain is involved. In case you're wondering, no one is exactly lining up to to hire someone with a cognitive disorder. It is not exactly a selling point!
So, once again, my husband and I are learning to walk by faith and not by sight. We are re-visiting lessons which have been learned in the past. Our daily bread is not provided by our jobs or any other type of compensation. While God may use those as tools to provide for us, our daily bread comes from God and God alone.
God's response to the sluggish reluctance of the long term insurance provider has been rather interesting to say the least. I got what may very well be my last paycheck on March 25th. Yesterday, my husband sent me an email. He had just been able to view is upcoming check online and with all of the overtime due to events he had to work, including a 10 day tour with a music group from the college... the amount was $269.00 short of what a "normal" check and my check would have been combined. I can deal with the $269.00 shortfall. I can snip a few things here and there by shopping carefully, not making any unnecessary trips and stretching a few dollars. I have done that before and I can do it again. Ironically, the grocery circular I just got in the mail today is filled with specials on the very items I need. God is good!
While God is not some sort of genie or vending machine, He is our Heavenly Father who cares for us and provides our needs... just like He cares for the lilies of the field and the sparrows. He is reminding me once again that although I am a wandering in a dark and dangerous world, I am not alone. I am under the protection of the King Himself... and it is well with my soul!
You O Lord, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light. Ps. 18:28
As I thought about my upcoming 4th year as apart of this ministry, I want to thank you in public. your faithfulness in"the eye of the storm' is a great encouragement and i'm the more blessed by it. be blessed and thanks for everything you do here in God's kingdom
Dear sister, great blog.
Life can certainly be challenging. It is a frightful thing to experience major financial or physical changes in our lives. I often think about individuals who are not saved but they are going through similar life experiences. There has been many times that only my belief in the Lord Jesus Christ was I able to make it through the change.
Like yourself, a serious setback occurred many years ago and also recently. What is not changed is the promise of our Lord and Savior. His spirit is in me because he bears witness to my spirit. You feel this also and it will carry you to the end. May God bless your endeavor to serve him and to glorify his precious name.
In the name of the Lord Jesus,
*Psa 26:2 Examine me, O LORD, and prove me; try my reins and my heart.