In December 2007 I was diagnosed with Triple Negative Breast Cancer (TNBC) which is a very aggressive form of breast cancer. Unlike other breast cancers, there is no hormone therapy for it and whereas the five year survival rate for most breast cancers is about 91%, it is 77% for TNBC.
My tumor was found during a routine mammogram so understandably having one done every year can cause some anxiety. I had my annual mammogram yesterday and this morning I learned the results are normal!
It has been nearly 10 and a half years since that dark morning when I cried out to God with all of my fears and questions. A few days later I would write:
I sobbed and screamed in agony at God. The questions came spilling out. All this was happening as I was zooming down the freeway through city traffic. There was silence as I struggled within myself. I wiped away my tears and listened. There wasn't an earthquake, a voice from heaven or anything else that would catch the attention of anyone except me. I had the sudden realization that Jesus Christ, Immanuel (God with us) was crying along with me. The outcome wasn't important. At this moment, God was crying along with me. He knew and understood my pain, sadness and fear.
At the time, I did not know I would be writing this blog 10 years later but I am and I am rejoicing for I have experienced first hand that even if we are walking on "a dark path", we do not walk that path alone. God walks with us and God and God alone not only keeps our lamp burning; He turns our darkness into light (Psalm 18:28).
Remember that. Regardless of what you are facing at the moment, remember. The "Giant", whether it be illness, grief, hardship or whatever does NOT have you. God does!