The dark cloud seemed to have swept in with the cold front which moved in early Saturday evening. Temperatures plummeted into the 40's as the rain fell intermittently. My husband and I were headed to a small town where a friend of ours was playing at an annual town festival. He'd been in a band for a couple of years. We didn't know if that was the best place for him to be so we were glad this would be their final performance.
We arrived late, right before a fireworks show. I was glad we had parked on the other side of the lake away from all of the traffic. We would actually be able to watch the display from the warmth of our car. After the show most of the people, especially those with small children, left. We met up with the wife of our friend and made our way into the tent where they were playing.
I watched a few couples moving about on the dance floor. It was pretty obvious they had spent most of their time in the beer line which was at the other end of the tent.
I have to say, I have a natural aversion to alcohol. I can't stomach the smell of it at all. It doesn't matter what it is. I don't know, perhaps it has something to do with fermentation. Anyways, this has come in handy for me and undoubtedly saved me a lot of grief. Although my parents didn't drink, I do come from a line of alcoholics on both sides and my brother is one as well. This was one thing which kept me from ever drinking and regardless of the personal views of others, in my case this was probably a good thing.
This time, however, I wasn't thinking about the smell. I was struck by the smiles which seemed to be pasted on because the eyes didn't seem to be smiling at all. They looked, well, almost lifeless. I found myself shivering and a dark cloud seemed to hover over me.
I awakened very early the next morning from a restless sleep. The cloud which had hovered over me the night before seemed to have engulfed me. Challenges with some students, a long list of things which needed to be done before school on Monday and other stuff whirled around in my head. Boom! Right on top of that fears of cancer recurrence suddenly tumbled down on top of me as well.
I knew I had to act fast. I softly called out to my husband but there was no answer. He was asleep. I remembered there is one who never slumbers or sleeps and he will always hear my cry. I remembered that while my husband can hold me, he cannot slay the darkness for there is only one Darkness-Slayer.
I held out my arms like a daughter towards her father. "Father, I need you to hold me right now. Can I sit on your lap?" I whispered. Swish! The darkness was suddenly ripped apart and vanished. It was as if a light was suddenly flipped on. I could sense the arms of my Heavenly Father around me. I was snuggled safely in his arms and nothing could touch me. The darkness could try to come around me but it couldn't touch me for I was in the arms of the Darkness-Slayer.
My darkness was displaced by light. My fears dissolved before pure joy! The morning had truly broken forth and I looked forward to the challenges of the day with anticipation. This was truly the day which the Lord had made!
After a wonderful church service, everything I needed to do fell smoothly into place. I felt refreshed and ready to join others at our church for an evening dedicated solely to worshiping and praising God. I sang, I prayed, I laughed and I cried. I hugged and received hugs. I rejoiced at what God had done for others and they rejoiced as I shared what God had done for me. It was so refreshing to be in God's presence and have your strength renewed. It is so good to be a daughter of the Darkness-Slayer!
May we never forget that God is the Darkness-Slayer! [bible]Psalms 27:1-3[/bible]
It's certainly a comforting blog which I would read periodically to remind myself who it is who can really dampen our fears and brings into his joy and comfort. I hadn't looked at this blog before, but I guess there is a time and season for everything and every purpose. I felt dismal this morning and this blog just happen to find its place today, this Monday. I really didn't feel like doing anything, but I took a walk and talk about it with the Lord and he showed me that I was trusting in myself and not on him. I feared to be alone and he made realize that I wasn't
alone and that I didn't need to fear need because just like that Monday morning, he was there to tell me what I needed that day to hear. Amen.
I have gotten up out of bed for the reasons you describe. No sooner had I laid down and tried to pray, then every thought became a whirlwind, an accusation ... I whispered, I must take every thought captive to Christ,but it was too dark. I got up out of bed and came to the den to read my Bible.
Thank you for this very timely blog.
Praise God, who is the Darkness-Slayer.Gracie