Plans. Most of us have them. Some of us have very detailed, precise plans complete with time lines. We know exactly what we are going to do and how it is going to be accomplished. We have a "vision" in our head. I'm not one of those people. That's not to say that I don't have plans. It's just that my plans have a tendency to be a bit more... flexible. Okay, I have a tendency to suddenly be hit with inspiration and take off at a moments notice. God, knowing that my free-spirit needed to be a bit more anchored brought a cooler, more practical head into my life in the form of my husband. However, that's another story.
We're not the only ones who make plans. God makes plans as well. His plans are not random, last minute things like mine. Unfortunately, we often act as if they are because God's plans and time lines seldom look like ours! According to our reasoning (since we secretly or not so secretly believe we know best) God must have made some sort of horrible miscalculation. Luckily, he has us to help him get things back on track!
I was thinking about this today while at church. The sermon series this month is: Christmas, A Beautiful Mess. Today my pastor spoke on "A Messy Schedule". One of the points he made regarding the birth of Christ was that although the timing, place, etc. was probably not the way we would have chosen, God knew exactly what he was doing and why. We were challenged to drop our schedule or plans and let God take over that area of our lives.
I got to thinking about the recent big upset in my plans. Cancer was definitely not a part of the plan. It wasn't in my schedule. Not only was it not on my schedule, it started messing up my schedule as well. Anyone who has been through it or had a loved one go through it will tell you there is a waiting period. You don't know anything or you don't know a whole lot. All your other plans are contingent on this one thing. When are you going to have surgery? What is your treatment schedule going to be like? How long will it be? How will you react to your treatment? Will you lose all or just some of your hair? When? Will you be able to work some of the time or will you be bedridden for awhile? Since everyone reacts differently, there are no exact answers.
Jeremiah 29:11 (NLT) says: For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."
While this (as well as many other things) may not have been a part of my plan, as someone who has given up their life to God I can be confident that I am living within God's plan. When my life is spinning out of control and I have no answers, there is One who is never out of control. He sees everything that will happen and has already made provision for me... no matter what
Living according to God's plan is where I want to be!