A month ago I was in the hospital battling for my life after a brain aneurysm ruptured shortly before midnight on December 10, 2007. I am not a stranger to battling for my life. I have not failed to notice that almost exactly two years before, on December 13, 2007 a biopsy confirmed that I had an aggressive form of breast cancer. Welcome to the planet Earth. We live in fallen world and as such we are going to face unpleasant things at one time or another during our lifetimes.
The good news is we don't have to walk alone! No! Oh what joy fills my heart to know that Jesus walks with me!
Sorry, I got a bit carried away but oh, what a thing to get carried away about!
Oh, even as I was unable to communicate with the world around me and trying to make sense out of the sights and sounds I could see and hear, I felt Him come up alongside me. Oh, I tried to speak to Him, I tried to cry out but it was useless for no words formed even within my mind.
I love the Lord because he hears my voice and my prayer for mercy. Because he bends down to listen, I will pray as long as I have breath! Death wrapped its ropes around me; the terrors of the grave overtook me. I saw only trouble and sorrow. Then I called on the name of the Lord: "Please, Lord, save me!" Psalm 116:1-4 (NLT).
Oh, I was physically unable to call upon the Lord but I know there are many times we feel a spiritual rope wrapped around our throat as well! We struggle to cry out but we are unable to do so. The pain is too great, the battle too fierce. How can God rescue us if He can't hear our cry?
He hears your every cry. Trust me on this. The words could not even form in my mind but still... I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He heard me for even as something within me struggled to pray, struggled to cry out, struggled to make sense of this madness that surrounded me, His presence broke through. God had not forsaken me. He loved me and He cared about me. Gently He whispered to me and suddenly the words began to form in my mind which I grabbed a hold of like a person facing death who has just been thrown a lifeline. "I am with you."
How kind the Lord is! How good he is! So merciful, this God of ours! The Lord protects those of childlike faith; I was facing death, and he saved me. Let my soul be at rest again, for the Lord has been good to me. He has saved me from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling. And so I walk in the Lord's presence as I live here on earth! Psalm 116:5-9 (NLT)
Amen, Amen, Amen!kb