Things were going well in November of 2007. I'd been disappointed a few years back when my position as a gifted/talented resource teacher had been eliminated due to district-wide budget cuts but God had enabled me to continue to stay at my same school part-time as a morning kindergarten teacher and and teaching a couple of afternoon prep classes. In 2006 I was able to switch to full time and we bought our house. Financially, we were more stable than we had ever been.
The 2006-2007 school year had been extremely challenging for me for a variety of reasons. It had been a rough year of many changes but better things were on the horizon the fall of 2007. Things were going well. Very well!
That fall, I was really feeling the presence of the Holy Spirit heavy upon my heart. The questions He asked me hung in the air... "Would I follow Him wherever He lead me? Would I trust Him no matter what?"
I would like to tell you I easily answered these questions but I did not. You see, I remembered a time years before when those same questions had been asked and I remembered being asked if I would trust Him even if I didn't see Him, hear Him or feel Him. Would I still love and trust Him even if it meant walking through a dark place, seemingly alone?" I remember that dark place...where I couldn't see Him, feel Him or hear Him. I remember the loneliness and the tears. I remember simply continuing on the path and clinging to His promises. I couldn't see Him... but He could see me; even on a dark path.
In the fall of 2007, I thought about those days and I trembled for I loved the soft grass and bright sunshine. I didn't want to be lead down a dark path. I wanted to stay "here".
I remember sitting in my van out in my driveway one day in November. How the tears flowed! What would my answer be to His call. Would I gladly follow Him wherever He led me, trusting that He would bring me through or would I dig in my heels and refuse to budge.
Like the disciples of old, I cried out "Where else can I go! You are LIFE!" He IS life itself and without Him... there is no life! I would remember this when I learned a few weeks later that I had a tumor... and it was cancer... and I discovered I was not walking with death, I was walking with LIFE for His hand was firmly clasped around mine. I was not on my dark path alone and neither are you. He is right there where He always is. He is right by your side.
Sister K, yes, God asks us to follow Him inspite of it all. Be it sickness, poverty, trial, loneliness, lack, hunger, He wants us to follow Him. Seek the Kingdom of God and all these things shall be added unto you. It is never easy to follow Him and have to pay a price but at the end, it is worth it.
God is worth our every sacrifice, our every effort and our every time. Let continue to trust the Lord as we walk along life's journey.
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[quote]Like the disciples of old, I cried out "Where else can I go! You are LIFE!" He IS life itself and without Him... there is no life! I would remember this when I learned a few weeks later that I had a tumor... and it was cancer... and I discovered I was not walking with death, I was walking with LIFE for His hand was firmly clasped around mine. I was not on my dark path alone and neither are you. He is right there where He always is. He is right by your side[/quote]
This is so true. As we walk with our hand in the hand of God we have life and in what ever circumstances we find ourselves that will never change.
Another good one!