He's Our Night Light

I couldn't stop crying. It was as if all the stuff which had happened to me since December 2009, no since December 2007 had suddenly come crashing down on me. Unbidden tears filled my eyes as I tried to finish packing up my classroom for summer break.

I shook myself. I would be fine. I'd just been under a lot of stress lately and when you piled health issues onto that, well now that school was over I didn't have to keep up an image in front of the kids. I finished up my classroom. I surveyed the room for a moment before locking the door. It looked good. Everything was ready for me to come back to the end of August. Well, not everything. They were still going to have to rearrange desks and bookshelves since I was getting that Promethean Board put in but the whiteboards had been moved to make space for it and the space was measured. They would put it up over the summer.

I said goodbye to a few people, chatted for a few minutes with the other second grade teachers, turned in my keys, got checked out, got into my car, drove off and... started to sob again almost uncontrollably. That went on for about 10 miles.

To make a long story short, I had bouts of crying all night long until about midnight. I'd even cried myself to sleep after dinner and managed to sleep for a couple of hours... before starting all over again.

I cried out to the Lord but the physical/psychological strain of the past two years had come crashing down around me. Ahead of me loomed my mammogram which is tomorrow. What if...?

Once again I felt like I was out on the water being tossed about. I knew Jesus was out there even if I couldn't see Him, hear Him or feel Him. I knew He was there but... did He know that I was out there, desperately clinging to my tiny vessel as it was bounced about on the menacing waves?

"You may not be able to see me, but I can see you."

Tears flowed down my cheeks as He gently whispered those words to me... and they are flowing once again. Yes! He could see me! There are no waves too high, there is no wind too fierce, there is no thunder loud enough to hide me from His view nor muffle my cry as I call out to Him.

I slipped out of bed and turned to Psalm 139. I paused when I came to verse 7 and then slowly read these words.

I can never escape from your Spirit! I can never get away from your presence! If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the grave, you are there. If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans, even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me. I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night but even in darkness I cannot hide from you. To you the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are the same to you. Psalm 139:7-12 (NLT)

I looked up an old song by Second Chapter of Acts from the 1980's called Night Light. As I listened to it, the phone rang. It was my dear friend Blest! She knew I was having a struggle and though it was late, she rushed to my side. :cry::heart:

The tears began to flow again as I talked to my friend. I thought about how God had let me know that He sees me even when I don't see Him. I thought about how He led me to His Word reminding me that I cannot be hidden from Him! I thought about the beautiful song He led me to once again, one I hadn't thought of in years and I thought about how He'd led a dear, precious friend to call me in the middle of the night to love me and pray for me. I thanked Him for so beautifully reminding me that I can NEVER get away from His presence and even when the wind and thunder roars and waves toss me to and fro, He STILL has me! No matter how "dark" things get, He always is my night light!

All along in my life, You've been there. Ever presently watching, Always in your care. And I just want to thank you, For loving me so. And I just want to thank you, For never, never letting go.

Through the storms at night,
You would shine your light,
Until the break of day.
Through the storms at night,
You would hold me tight,
And never, never, never leave my side.
You're my night light.

And never, never, never leave my side.
You're my night light.

--Annie Herring, 2nd Chapter of Acts

Blessings!

Joyce Bethy Ferguson @bethy ·

One of my favourite psalms that.

My friend, how I hate to hear of you having to struggle. Yet this psalm reminds us that even in the worst times he is there ahead of us.

You enjoy your break, August will come quickly enough.

nite nite
.b.

Beth M @blest ·

Psalm 139 is one of my favorites, too. It's gotten me through many things and many times.

You said, "There are no waves too high, there is no wind too fierce, there is no thunder loud enough to hide me from His view nor muffle my cry as I call out to Him." Amen and amen.

Praying for you tomorrow... I'll be changing my ring for you ;) ... No waves too high...

William Stephens @eschator83 ·

Please be sure you are in our prayers. Tomorrow I drive an hour to Boston for my now annual cancer checkup. My wife always comes with me, but really doesn't want to talk about it on the way to the doctor. So I try to chat with her about other things, and yet my mind is racing with thoughts about what I will say and do if the doctor says this, or that, or the other thing.
I worry often about whether I have enough trust, and I was pleased to read this morning for the first time these words from CS Lewis to his "friend," (that's a bit of a story for another day) Malcom:
"Some people feel quilty about their anxieties and regard them as a defect of faith. I don't agree at all. They are afflictions, not sins. Like all afflictions, they are, if we can so take them, our share in the Passion of Christ."
Christ be with you.

Maria Abigail Guevarra @purifymyheart ·

I know not what to say..
I thank GOD.. He sees us.
I thank GOD for comforting you..

I had a case that is the same as Inflammatory Breast Cancer..
All the symptoms of it were present except for one thing (inverted nipple)
I didn't want to go to the doctor and hear him say that it's IBC or even mastitis.
I didn't tell my parents how really really bad my situation was because I'm sure they're going to force me to see a doctor at once.
I cried... alone... thinking that no one sees me...
Oh... but GOD was there.. He is always by our side..

When the time came that I went to have my check-up and then had an ultrasound..
During the ultrasound, i was crying... But I know I wasn't crying on my own. the LORD is with me. He comforts me. He holds me and embraces e that's why I was able to get through that part of my life victoriously. :)

Thank You LORD.. Thank You..

Hugz* & :flower:Blessings,
Abbie