Earlier this morning, I read a blog called Sometimes You Have To Encourage Yourself written by Frank King (@efrank). My reply got a bit lengthy so I shortened it and decided to post the rest of it in this blog.
When I was diagnosed with cancer, I realized immediately that I could not do this on my own and immediately cried out to God as well as some of His children. However, I also realized that there were steps I personally needed to take for in the end, I am responsible for me.
I knew that David had faced many issues so I immersed myself in the Psalms. I pulled out particular passages of scripture which had ministered to me greatly in the past. I wrote or printed them out so I could keep them before me at all times. Memorization is great but when you are going through chemo... no I needed to have the Word physically before me. I was pretty much homebound for seven months so I had post-it notes stuck to my computer as well... some of them are there to this day. I even stuck my favorite passage in my email signature and on my carepage. I didn't want it to just encourage me... I wanted it to encourage others as well.
Encouraging others. That was/is a key factor. When we get our eyes off of ourselves we shift from being self-centered. When we put our eyes on Christ, we become Christ-centered. That is where we want to be.
I do not want to diminish the fact in anyway that there were people who ministered to me and are continuing to do so. These people, who act as the hands and feet of Christ toward me are such a blessing to me! However, as precious and uplifting as those friendships have been, I know that every single one of those people would insist that they were merely instruments whom God used.
In the end, others are not responsible for my relationship with God. They are not responsible for whether or not I choose to walk in His strength or in my own. I am responsible for the kind of relationship I have with God. I am responsible for choosing to trust Him... or choosing not to do so.
I realize there are many Christians who would debate this issue as to whether or not we choose anything but I am not one of them. I fully believe that we do make choices in this life and I fully believe that we are responsible for our own actions. We can point our fingers at others, including God, all we want but I believe it is high time that we as Christians start taking responsibility for our actions.