I Don't Need To Understand

Yesterday, at the age of 33 a young wife and mother who attends my church ended her battle against cancer. She leaves behind a husband and two small children. I will always remember her smile and her joy... even in the midst of the darkness.

We'd met at a church small group in January 2007 and a few weeks later she was diagnosed with Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma. A little less than a year later, I was diagnosed with Invasive Ductal Carcinoma (breast cancer) triple negative. Usually negative is a good thing but when it comes to breast cancer, you don't want to be triple negative for that means it is highly aggressive and your treatment options are limited.

Due to our illnesses/treatment we did not cross paths often. We usually went to different church services as well but when we would meet up we would always hug one another and give each other words of encouragement. God was teaching us and giving us precious treasures as we both walked this path called Cancer. We both knew we were not walking it alone!

Now, despite my own battle with cancer and more recently a stroke, I am here and she is not. :(

While God is certainly able to heal, while He is certainly mighty to save, He is not our puppet and He will do things as He sees fit. We may not understand it but that's okay... God does.

As I thought about my friend, I recalled an old song my mother used to sing around the house when I was small. It took a bit of digging to find it but here are the lyrics:

1. Life is like a mighty sea
So tossed and driven.
Billows rise within the heart of every man
Storms so many times will
Leave the heart with questions
But I don't need to understand
Just hold His hand

I don't need to understand
I just need to hold His hand
I don't ever need to ask the reason, why
For I know He'll make a way
Through the night and through the day
I don't need to understand
I just need to hold His hand.

  1. When my life down here is through
    And Jesus calls me
    To my home up there, beyond the golden shore.
    I'll look back, review the path
    That lay before me.
    Then I won't need to understand anymore

May we all tightly hold His hand!


K :princess:

Andrew Luckhaupt @luckyone ·


I am so sorry. My prayers are with you and that family.

I know I shouldn't say this but... I hate that disease!

Many prayers.


Alan Nethery @shadowalker ·


My prayers go out for her family, but I praise God that her pain is over. Although we should mourn for the loss of their presence in our lives, and for their loved ones who are grieving, we should also remember that she has finally got to see the Savior face to face. -Oh for the joy that must have been! -And praise God also that the parting will be a short one until her family sees her again... Praise Him for that assurance!

Blessings! :pray:


Alison Stewart @kiwibird ·

Father I thank you for a young woman who's mind has been fixed on you. I ask you to comfort her family as they come to terms with their loss.


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