The house was very still and quiet late last night. My husband was off at a men's event and would be back very late. Even my cat was out prowling about.
I realized I should probably head off to bed but I found myself reluctant to do so. That happens to me occasionally now. It is not the normal "I'd rather be up doing this or that" sort of thing. Rather it is trauma-related for when I went to sleep one night last December, I came very close to never waking up in this world ever again.
One of the things ushered into this world as a result of sin is fear. No matter how close we are to God, I believe it is something which will seek to creep into our minds as long as we live in this world. I know, I know. You may have been told Christians don't ever have fear and if you do, well... you're messed up. Since when did becoming a Christian mean that you cease being human? Like it or not, as long as we reside within our bodies, we are going to encounter the weaknesses and temptations of the flesh. Denial of this issue simply means one is not dealing with it and it will simply fester until it is out of control.
A better solution is to acknowledge it right away and bring it to God. That was exactly what I did. When fear threatened to envelop me, I cried out to the One who hears my every cry. I turned to the Word of God and read:
I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, LORD, only makest me dwell in safety. Psalm 4:8It is God who keeps me safe! Does this mean we will never suffer physical harm? No! It means that regardless of what happens to this body, YOU are safe for you are tucked away in the safety of His hand.
Fear vanished instantly as I contemplated these words. Because of Jesus Christ, I can lie down in peace and sleep, knowing that I am resting in God's hands. There is no better place to be!
As I turned to rise to go to my bedroom, I heard a key turn in the front door. My husband was home a bit earlier than expected. As I told what had just transpired, he held me close and reminded me that indeed God is the only one who can truly keep me safe and He will never leave my side.
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