I'm finished. After eight and a half months which includes the initial finding of my tumor as well as treatment, I'm finished. It has been a very long road. At least it seemed that way to me. The flurry of doctor appointments, tests, medications and the battering of the body have come to an end. I saw my primary care physician this week and told her I've been sliced, diced and fried since I last saw her in January during my pre-surgery exam. She thought a moment and said, "You had chemo so you were pickled too." Laughter is good medicine! It is good to be able to laugh and it truly is a gift from God.
Brothers and sisters in Christ are a gift from God as well. They are God's loving hands, feet and even voice in this world. During one of my darkest nights while I was in chemo, I'd slipped out of bed and visited this site. I cried out in despair and a member who was halfway around the world heard my cry and responded immediately. As I read their words, I knew they came directly from the Holy Spirit. The darkness was slashed and God's light shone through.
You, O LORD, keep my lamp burning, my God makes my darkness light. Psalm 18:28 (NIV)
Many CB brothers and sisters have come up along beside me as I have walked this road. Thank you for walking in obedience to God. You have lifted up my arms when I was too weary too lift them up. Your words would penetrate my heart when the darkness would try to chase me and consume me. Thank you for speaking, I mean writing the words God placed in your heart to say to me.
I may be about to face another bend in this road but doesn't that happen to all of us? I may have developed chemo-induced diabetes but I won't know for sure until the end of next week. Sometimes this condition corrects itself the further you move away from chemo. Sometimes it doesn't, however it has literally been caught at the time of onset as glucose is something they've checked frequently over this past year. That's good.
Whether I have to round this bend or a different bend, I know that I will not walk alone. God never leaves my side and he brings fellow princes and princesses to walk beside me as well, whether I'm aware of it or not.
As I read your blog, the following song I used to sing keeps ringing in my ears:
There's within my heart a melody
Jesus whispers sweet and low
Fear not I am with Thee
Peace be still
In all of life's ebb and flow.
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus
Sweetest Name I know
Fills my every longing
Keeps singing as I go.
I do not know the writer's name for attribution as it is really a very old song which I have not sung recently. Perhaps it is a song for you. I trust the Lord will keep you singing in all of life's ebb and flow. Only He knows our future .. and He has control of our future.
Praying that you will be healed completely.
Love in Christ,
The last line of the song should read
Keeps me singing as I go.
I have been so privileged to share this journey with you. Your faith has been inspiring and a complete testimony to God's goodness, mercy and unfailing love. I praise Him for carrying you through this difficult path and am so thankful you are done! I remember so vividly when Mom was done, the feeling of relief washing over me, as if it were me, that were going through it. I will continue to pray for you K, in regards to the diabetes and I am so glad you are done, so that you can start school, that is answered prayer right there! I love you so much in the Lord dear sister and celebrate with you today! Blessings! Andrea
Indeed, you have been a witness for us. What a privilege to pray for you as you faced this trial. You fought the good fight!
2 Cor 1:3
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.
Your testimony is an inspiration and you are in my prayers for the complete restoration of your body :) We won't stop and accept it as it is... so I'm gonna keep asking God for a complete healing and not stop till it is done! Gotta smack those arrows on the ground five or six times!!!
You have been an inspiration to me. You and my friend Virginia both going through a similar experience with your cancer treatments.
You are both remarkable women!!
I am very familiar with that song, He Keeps Me Singing. I thought I'd heard there was a story behind it so I did a bit of quick research. It was written by a minister named Luther Burgess Bridgers. In 1910, he was invited to conduct a two week revival in another state. He left is wife and three children at the home of his father-in-law and spent the next two weeks preaching.
From what I've read, the revival was a great time of renewal and refreshing. Many came to know Christ. After the revival meetings ended, he received a phone call. His father-in-law's house had burned and his wife and three sons had perished in the fire. It was during this time that he wrote this song.
Additional verses are:
[center][b][i]Though sometimes he leads through waters deep,
Trials fall across the way,
Though sometimes the paths seem rough and steep
See his footprints all the way.
Soon he's coming back to welcome me
Far beyond the starry sky
I shall wing my flight to worlds unknown
I shall reign with him on high![/center][/b][/i]
Thank you for sharing this song. May others be blessed by these lyrics as I have been. My "theme" song during this time has been "How Can I Keep From Singing?" Truly God places a song within our hearts. He is always with us and our GOD turns our darkness into light!