I've been reading John Knox ( @watchmanjohn ) 's series on prayer and while all the blogs have been excellent, his most recently published one, Prayer Has To Be From A Position Of Strength really spoke to me this morning. It is well-worth reading for prayer does require us to get into a position, not a physical position but a spiritual position. Our heart must be in the right position.
As I read his blog, my thoughts turned immediately to that night when I was literally screaming at God while driving down the freeway late one night. The week had begun with my learning I might have cancer and that night the strain of trying to hold it together, the uncertainty, etc, reached a head and I screamed and screamed and screamed. I did not ask God to take away my tumor. I demanded, yes, demanded that He rip it out of me immediately! I was an angry, hurt and frightened child and at the moment, I was furious with God. How could He possibly stand by and let this sort of thing happen to me? What right did He have to... to... to...
God understood. He understood my grief and my fear and He did not hold that against me. Instead, He simply held me. God understood but after allowing me to "get it all out" a transformation took place. You see, I remembered that Jesus was "in the boat" with me. I didn't know what He was going to do but I knew He was with me and I would be safe... no matter what.
I dropped my fist and took my eyes off the storm. I needed to go and sit down quietly beside Jesus. I needed to start out by being thankful that I was not in this storm alone. I needed to be thankful that I was riding with the one who was the Master of the Sea even when the sun didn't shine and the waves rolled over me. So that's what I did. Instead of declaring my anger, fear and even healing, I began to declare Jesus Christ and in doing so, I got into the right position. It was a position of recognizing who God is. It was a position that said, "I want your will to be done more than I want mine." It was a position that said, "Here I am. I am yours and I give myself to you willingly without reservation."
We pray differently when we are in the right position. This does not mean we no longer bring our petitions to God. Indeed, God wants us to do so! However, we see and respond to things differently when we are in the right position.
May we get into the right position.