We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 2 Cor. 4: 8-9 (NIV)
2 Corinthians 4 is a passage I have turned to so much over the years. I remember as a young mom, we were going through a very difficult time financially. I'd quit my job for ethical reasons and hadn't worked for six months. It just seemed that life was getting tougher and tougher. As I sat at the table with tears streaming down my cheeks, I opened my Bible. The words, "For our light affliction, which is but for a moment... " jumped out at me. I began to laugh. This trial, this situation wasn't going to last forever! It might seem like forever while I'm going through it, but it was only one brief moment in time in comparison to eternity. Could I endure it for one of God's moments?
From that point on, I began to look at adversity differently. No, it didn't just vanish but remembering that it only lasts for one brief moment in eternity certainly changed my perspective.
Yesterday it was confirmed that I have breast cancer. I'm not going to pretend that's easy to hear. It's not. However, before those words even had a chance to sink in, the doctor interrupted my thoughts with more news... positive news. It was caught very early. The tumor is small. "Very, very small." The type of cancer I have responds very well to treatment. It appears that it will be very easy to remove. It's not as agressive as what was feared.
So, strangely enough, I am rejoicing. During an ordinary phone call to set a doctor's appointment for something else, it was brought to my attention that I was past due for a mammogram. If I would have been younger, the cancer may very well have not shown up on the mammogram. I won't go into detail on that one... if you don't know why, just trust me on that one. :)
So, now I am faced with a choice. I don't have a choice in regards to walking with cancer. For now, this is the path God has chosen me to travel. However, I do have a choice in how I walk that path. I can go down it fighting, kicking, resisting and shaking my fist at God or I can place my hand in his and trust what God has said he will do!
*8/18/11--This blog is now part of a series entitled Walking With God In The Midst of Cancer