Today has been a rather quiet day for me. I'm trying to get over a cold, my husband had to work, it's cold outside, there was nothing urgent to do so... I just enjoyed the peace and quiet.
During a quiet time of reflection, I found myself reflecting on where I was exactly one year ago. December 18, 2009 was actually the first "full" day that I remembered after landing in the hospital with a ruptured brain aneurysm and having an SAH and stroke.
I had some shattered memories before and had started trying to piece things together late in the evening on December 16 and on December 17 but it was really on December 18th that my "internal chronometer" began to work again and I was fully aware of my surroundings.
I remember that day well. I gained some understanding of what had happened to me. I was asking questions and interacting with the world again. I understood that there was no detectable permanent damage done and that I would be "okay". I felt optimistic. Then... I was informed that I was going to be transferred to ICU.
ICU? Wasn't that a step backward? That wasn't what I wanted to hear! Why did I have to go to ICU? Wasn't I getting better? Was something wrong? Had something happened? Was I going to... was I going to die? Why did I have to go back?
I was told that they simply wanted to keep a very close eye on me. There was a spot available in ICU and they thought it would be best to place me there.
Those poor ICU nurses. I was becoming more active by the moment and was definitely not your typical ICU patient. In fact, I rarely slept the entire time I was there. I guess I'd slept enough over the past week plus I suspect the meds, in addition to other things, were making me hyper. LOL!
Today, as I sat by the fire and watched the lights from my Christmas tree flicker, I thought about this time last year. I realized that although there have been challenges, God has faithfully brought me through each one.
There will be challenges in the new year as well for there always are. However, there is one thing that has not and will not change. God is still God and "When I sit in darkness, the Lord shall be a light unto me." Micah 7:8.
As we go into this new year, may we reflect upon the love God has shown us and will continue to show us forevermore!
[quote]There will be challenges in the new year as well for there always are. However, there is one thing that has not and will not change. God is still God and "When I sit in darkness, the Lord shall be a light unto me." Micah 7:8. [/quote]
Amen! I remember reading somewhere about God being with us always Always is a long time!TT