I headed off bright and early to see my neurosurgeon this morning. Unfortunately, upon my arrival I learned that he had just called in and would not be coming in due to illness. I would however be seeing his assistant.
It was a very strange feeling, sitting down with her. You see, she'd met me and even talked with me a number of times those first days I spent in the hospital. However, as I retain little memory of those days, she was a stranger to me.
I showed up in neurosurgery armed with a list of questions. I'd learned that from my "cancer days". One by one, she patiently answered each questions.
For the first time I found out where the aneurysm was specifically. It was under the brain, near the center, in the area between the brain itself and the tissue which covers it.
After explaining a few more things, she looked at me and quoted the statistics I'd heard before. One-third of the people who have a subarachnoid hemorrhage do not make it to the hospital. One-third of the people die within thirty days. Of the remaining one-third who survive, most of them go into nursing homes and/or suffer from some sort of permanent disability. She concluded by saying "You were very lucky. Very lucky."
Of course, I know luck has nothing to do with it and that God had His hand upon me. If I would have been driving home, if I would have been at school, if I would have been anywhere, I could have been killed and possibly even killed someone else. If I wouldn't have changed my mind when my husband asked me if I was coming to bed and finished up that "last little thing", no one would have heard me probably. If I would not have become ill when it happened... they tell me everyone is unique and that often does NOT happen, my husband would have never known I was in trouble. This is very, very sobering to me and serves as a reminder that my life is in God's hands.
We might get touched by "junk" in this world but God controls the how long and how much! I know, at times it may seem unendurable but that is when we must trust Him no matter what! He will not allow us to be crushed. He will not abandoned us nor will He allow us to be destroyed for we belong to Him !
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 2 Corinthians 4:8-9 (NIV)
K! I just want to hug you lol.
Thankyou God for having You hand in it all and for keeping our K safe!